Kiss the RainNe

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2008-06-21T11:28:00.000-07:00

I've....

MOVED ON.

Click on the link to go to my new home.

2008-06-17T03:44:00.000-07:00

I jz dyed+cut my hair=)
My hair is now a lil brighter than b4.
Not fwee to update sowee.
And i'm off to Bangkok rite now bwaiz bwaiz.

SassyQueen is back.

2008-06-14T08:58:00.000-07:00

I am backkkkkkk!

I am very happy. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ^.^v

But i am very tired now...super sleepy.

Mum&bro came to da airport to pick me up..Den i kinda chit-chat with mum for few hours den i went to sleep. Dad came back to see me, he hug & kissed me when i was sleeping but i dun reli rmb anything=p I oni rmb my dad came to my room & gave me a big MWAHS on my cheek.

And the big surprise fr dad is..he bought a new house=) Its a Semi-D, corner lot, with park & lake bside my hse. My room is facing the lake. Tomoro dad will take me there to have a look at my new housie.

Anywayz here are some pics of Bangalore..

Walking on the street trying to be like one backpacker while looking for bfast to eat..Seriously its damn tiring my back almost break. And i feel extremely painful when i sneeze.

I dunno why but we ended up eating in this 5star hotel.

Shopping, shopping..See the red 4 storeys levi's.

View fr KFC.

Cow on the street.

This man trying to save the pigeon..

Gangsta=p hahaha. I stepping on max's luggage while i was doing my makeup & he took a pic of it.

Bangalore new airport..New airport la but muz pay 1070 for the tax.

Bangalore was freaking cold. ok gtg now tom is father's day.

Happy father's day to all papa in the world!!! xD

Sweat. asked my bro to let my dog in so i can sleep with her tonite but aiks mum woke up when i was "mik mok"-ing my dog..Haha.Ya this is my language with bren bren.

I'm in Bangalore the shopping heaven~

2008-06-12T00:41:00.000-07:00

HI people!
I am in Bangalore now.
Enjoying my shopping trip..

Guess what? we reached here ard 6a.m in the morning & we started walking ard looking for breakfast. We walked for ard 45mins and decided to have buffet in this wonderful 5star hotel - Pavillion. OMG its lk one of the nicest meals i ever had here.

I am now here with 4 storeys levi's, dockers, United colors of Benetton , Tommy H and ya thr are much more. and most of them are cheaper than Msia=)

Will update the pics sooon okiee..

I'll reach Msia ard 1230p.m on Saturday.

Ok bye. Me wanna continue my shopping...

Sassy queen is coming back.

2008-06-09T22:10:00.000-07:00

Updates: Am going to bangalore tonite, will reach there in the morning=) I heard Bangalore is super cold now woooHoo~ I miss papa, I miss mama, I miss bren bren & my bro lah. Wait fer me!

I am a nerd.

Yay! finally i fin my finalssss.
I pray hard that i wont have to come bek for supplementary exam!!!
Ok I feel errm...Lazy rite now. I don't feel like moving at all but i have many things yet to settle.
Joe will fin his exam today so i am now waiting for him to come back so we can go buy mangoes,bus ticket(air ticket too expensive laa, i sacrifice for this time la T.T) bcuz rite max is damn lazy la, we supposed to settle everything together so Joe doesn't need to do so many things but he is sleeping rite now, doesnt wna wake up. SUcha pig. I will post his denture pic(super funny one) to show u all since he "kek" me. He is like Joe's second wife seriously,mirously.

Anywayz...I've made appointment with Jian wei on Monday. then Tuesday i will fly to Bangkok with my family YAY! And kantul i saw Jian Wei doing something erhem. I saw ok. hahaha. Ask me if u wna know.

Sigh i wna tell u bout my interesting story but canot la if i tell it will affect many many of my friends so i muz KEEP quiet!

Ok i got nothing to blog about. DUno wanna go bangalore today or tomorrow.

Wendy we waiting for ur confirmation about the Sipadan trip pls SMS me or VV.

Love u all okieeS? Hugsss for all my babies. Go yumcha with me k sistahs & frens Mwahs.
I'll be back on 14th morning ok? WAKAKAKAKAKA.
Actually..i dun feel like going back d..cuz i have phobia sitting at home wasting time doing nothing! i hate hate hate that feeling OMG.
Shug shug me=)

2008-06-07T09:21:00.000-07:00

As you guys know, Mangalore has nothing. For people like us to survive here is not easy. From a super happening big town to a small town here with only a few night clubs own by the hotels & 2 shopping malls here.

Sometimes i feel so lonely, so depressed that i am here, feeling so lost, having only this small community here with many conflicts. When i try hard to patch things up between people, it just seemed like it was my fault, from the beginnig when it happened it was my fault, and now when i am trying to patch things up it became my fault also. I can't do anything to compensate what was lost, bcuz i was not given a chance to make things better. Worst thing is i felt being unappreciated. I tried to patch up thgs between u guys, but now seems like i have to pick up all the broken pieces of my heart, one by one, stick it back together all by myself. Why? why isit so hard to be a good person? why isit so hard to fullfil God's commandment..Why isit so hard to follow what the bible says? It is so difficult, to even try to be a lil bit like Jesus.

*sigh*

Whenever i am depressed, lonely, frustrated..there is alwaiz one thing that can reli make me happy.

................Ballroom dancing=)

Eventho the standard here is way lower than what we have in Msia, but i am really happy. The people here are nice. U know, is good to mix with people around us than being alone at home.

I've learned quick step, Jaive & cha-cha-cha. But i will hide everytime the guys invite me for jaive cz i'll look reli clumsy and whenever they turn me here n there i jz feel like i am going to break=p lol. i am serious. Maybe cuz my hands are too thin. Plus i alwaiz forget my steps. *biasa-lah* haha.

This is my baby pooh. Look, she is happy.

This is winnie. I like the way she dance tho. So cool & sexy.

And the video of Jaive..

And me..Slow quick step with Jason.

I miss my ballroom in SUNWAY! Ahh.

Beware, i am coming back on the 14th June 2008 to create havoc.

Watch out for me!

The eye.

2008-06-05T12:13:00.000-07:00

Joe said her eyes look like longan seed, black guli..
^^

My new interest.

2008-06-01T06:10:00.000-07:00

I have a new interest..I think about it almost every hour everyday...
I want to be..........
be.........
be........

A BACKPACKER!!!

Many people said i sure cannot one/i am so taisiujie/i duno the meaning of backpacking.
Ya, many have told me that i look like one Qian Jin Xiao Jie but let me tell u, i can ok. and i want to do it. So anyone wants to come with me?
If u ask me to sleep in super dirty place of cuz i canot, but i can do some simple backpacking what rite WHO KNOWS?

Lets backpack in Japan lol. Ok hmmm maybe SABAH since some people dun wanna go so far. I am dying to go SIPADAN ok? 3rd best beach in the world!~WOOOHOO. Since i canot afford to go Mauritius and Maldives yorr i reli wana go, will save this for my honey moon then. I heard to be there for 2 weeks cost u a KANCIL.

And why fellow readers, some of u read my blog almost everyday but i have no comments here one, some sumore reply me in MSN..haiyoh my baby blog so dead one why?

Gotta go study already ok..

I wanna be a backpacker ok? A person can travel around the whole world for 90days ok i planned with Joe and his housemates d ok i wanna go ok but am sure they dun wna bring me T.T i think i will whine a lot hahahaha.

But i can be one ok dun phray phray ah.

Sobs.

2008-05-30T05:38:00.000-07:00

Edit : I wanna clarify something bout my prev post. That person i wanted to complain about is not beloved Joe okiee=) And i am still very close with all my pasts except one very narrow hearted one, he jz had to gimme shit when i edi hav tonnes of shits here.

ANYWAYZ..I love this pic!! wendy posted it as her facebook primary pic. Oh ya, a FAKE BROTHER of mine actually posted this pic in blueserver forum..And soooooo many people rated me ok. Ish.

Tsk tssk tsskkkk tsssssskkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!
Sobs.
If i fail how..then i will have to come back for supplementary exam how?
Sobs.
If no supple how? if they ask me to repeat my whole 2nd year how?
Sobs.
WILL i pass? SObs
How...?
Wuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~
Stop asking me hows my paper.
Sobs.

My battle.

2008-05-29T04:39:00.000-07:00

Updates: thanks for all the msgs babes. Thanks for comforting me & encouring me. I know God is alwaiz there by myside.

The battle finally begins..Tomorrow~!
So anxious. I'm so scared, I'm so scared so scared,SCARED. Somebody hug me, manja me,comfort me plss. But all of u are so damn far away fr me. *sobs*

Anywayz, i wanna complain bout this person who never tried to comfort me in fact he treated me lk a punching bag by bringing everything up fr the past trying to ruin my day.Suddenly bcame so sacarstic to me. This is called a "Bitter Break Up" for him. That is why u should never date a small boy Lol. I am sure u know who is it. But this is not the time to blog bout it yet. Haha exams 1st.

Pray for me aite aite? I will be back dear sistahs and friends, pls don't tell me u are busy to meet up cuz bz accompanying bf, or bcuz u want to keep ur new frens company OK? Cuz this time Hammie, me and Wendy came bek so u all shud be happy. I don't mind if u wanna make me a surprise party too. Haha. 14th June i will be bek, wait for me!!!~ Oh ya dad said he has a big big suprise for me..and mum said canot tell me yet. +.+"

I am so panic rite now AHHh~ i'm bit sleepy, i drank a bit of redbull and my body starts shivering cuz i canot take caffeine. and one small bottle of redbull cost rm7.50 here.

Ok i duno what am i typing..Pray for me so that i will pass and i don't need to come bek to sit for my supplementary exam,so that u can spend more time with me in Msia..Mwahs mwahs mwahs.

Ok and my main purpose of this post is to wish JERRY a very HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY. May you continue to shine for JESUS=) Rmb my website ok designer tony mang. Ok bye bye i nid to study now..

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Sichuan Earthquake.

2008-05-23T10:17:00.000-07:00

I just watched this video my gawd my heart aches.
Mum was telling me about the sichuan earthquake and today i decided to watch the video on youtube. Cuz Mama told me she n papa were very sad watching it.
And this guy Chen Jian's story reli reli touched my heart. The most precious thing in this world is ur life. Nothing is more important than all the luxury dreams.
This guy survived for almost 3 days buried under 3 concrete slabs, the rescuers spent 6 hours recueing him and he died after they rescued him.

Have u told ur love ones that u love them today?
I believe things will get better, if people continue to love.
May God bless all the victims.

2008-05-19T05:10:00.000-07:00

Juz came bek from Max's houz. Went there to study & i took one of his tilam back for free.=)
Hmm..ya he gave it to me for FREE! Cuz my hall got no sofa oni got dining table so yah no sofa to sit sit on tilam la. (I canot afford a set of sofa la..plus i oni got 2+++ years here oni,then after this throw where?)

Yesterday, Joe got saman fr da police. We went out by bike, he alwaiz thinks riding bike is cool and doesnt wanna take auto.Ytd duno wth was wrong with his brain he actually crossed the red light! Then kantul la, one traffic police stood at the side of the road where nobody can see him.

He was smiling happily at us. Like SO damn happy hello...And he spoke hindi to us all the time, he tot Joe is an indian cz canot see his face(he was wearing helmet). But hello what about me? do i look like one indian PLSSSSS lah ishhhhh. So obvious i am a foreigner & fr the way i speak u know lah rite i am not an INDIAN.
Well, jangan bagi mereka tau ok saya tulis dalam bahasa melayu. (sry my BM sucks). Sebenarnya Joe tak ade lesen. hohoho Shhhh.
At 1st one fella walked pass and he told us not to pay him. But u know la Joe dun have that one so the deal was 100 rupees. (rasuah la obviously)
HAHAHAHA. So easily kautim. only rm8.50.
The police was so happy ok and at 1st he sumore wanna pretend to write down the number plate. SO effin fake la why la u wanna act for..
So today i cooked la. Abalone soup, vege & agar agar!!!
That agar-agar is damn hard, i duno why i jz cant make agar2 cuz the last time i made it was as hard as a stone. Then this time jz a lil softer sigh.=*(
Then rite while we were walking to max houz joe showed me the agar-agar in his mouth, u kno he ate the centre part and the bottom part is damn hard so he told me that its damn hard and can be used in boxing practise to protect the teeth. And he placed it between his teeth and the lips and ask me to box him. So i tried boxing him.
Guess what he said? He said its damn good and can reli use for boxing......
HAHAHAHA.
I am havin my finals in 10days time so people pray for me and my batchmates kie thank U.
Mwahs God bless u.
P.s: sry la i kno i shudn't bribe la ok-)

2008-05-13T16:37:00.000-07:00

Hi, its me again=)

See its 5.15a.m now and i am still awake. Sigh i can't sleep if i don't study but my hand damn itchy have to bring my laptop to my study room.(oh yes i own the whole apartment by myself)

I jz fin my improvement exam for microbio today. Wtf this yr duno what happened to me i was juz too lazyy!(Joe studied less than me but he passed everything, so unfair why guys smarter than girls or am i jz too stupid=p) Guess what? I tot its gonna be theory paper lk my Oral histo exam but sweat we had viva today. At 1st i was abit irritated with this, cuz i think if u write then u'll have time to think then write down, if viva u have to answer him straight. If u forget when u see the lecturer's face n suddenly after 5 mins u remember how?

I canot canot canot memorize the name of all bacterias!!!

But it went well. The lecturer said my mark this time is not good. So i asked him WHATS my mark sir, u know what he replied me? I AM NOT GONNA TELL U. Haha. double sweat -.-"

Thank God everything went well, bcuz i dun think i can score if its theory. Why? I overslept. T.T Damn panic ok when i woke up i was reading my notes with the speed of light. And me i like to waste time writing colorful notes, cutting it short without memorising it when i write, I know i shouldn't take time for granted anymore.From now on i will memorize everything!!

My written notes.

Let me show u some pic of my hse. Its damn messy ok. And after the pic i am gonna tell u something scarey ok...

Max took a pic of the marking scheme & sent it to me. So was referring to it while studying. Not on9 ok.

Chair oso got notes. Towel oso simply throw haiyoh.

Yesterday something really bad happened to Joe.

He finished making his acrylic denture & wanted to polish it. Then rite this machine got prob, he inserted his bur & when he rotated it the bur flew out and HIT HIS EYES!

Gosh. And his housemate(Puvan) was so sweet, he was the first who ran to him and asked if he still can see. THen he brought him the hospital. The doctor said it was conjunctival tear, Thank God its jz conjunctival tear.(same lk wat happened to bren bren last time) Another thing about Puvan, his owner actually search his name with mangalore on google, then he saw my blog. Damn weird.

Wanna see a pic of Joe's eye?

There.

He'll eat u if u mess with me.

No lah. Actually he is a very sweet pretty malay boy. >.<

Amazing God.

2008-05-11T05:09:00.000-07:00

Our God is a promising god.
Hallelujah.=)
and i got 42/60 for my improvement test.
Am so touched. I know without Him i can't do it.
But i missed church today..I jz did my worshipping service myself=p
I sang so loud ok HAHAHA i think my neighbours will get irritated. I think la.
Its amazing how God can touch me not only in church but at home too. I love it when God touch me then i will shiver n start tearing..
"I’m forgiven because You were forsaken I’m accepted,
You were condemned I’m alive and well,
Your Spirit is within me Because You died and rose again

Amazing love, how can it be
That You, my King, would die for me?
Amazing love, I know it’s true
It’s my joy to honor You In all I do, To honor You"

I pray for all of u that God will work in ur life too.
*xoxo*

My worn undergarment?

2008-05-08T09:20:00.000-07:00

OMG!
Someone mailed me to ask whether im selling my worn undergarment, and that person is willing to pay me very very high price for it.
Damn you, idiot.
How can u be so pervert ISH ISH ISH ISH ISH i am so angry .
and i am not suppose to say OMG or the word idiot la u see.
Sigh.
And wow i was up for like so long ytd nite, and i jz kept reading and reading and reading my notes & some photostated notes fr my fren.
Hope i can score well this time.
Thanks to those who msged me to wish me, i really appreciate it a lot and the wishes reli boost my confidence. Thank you once again.

edited.

Sry baby=>
P/s - Dr.Mahathir has a blog. ^^

I'm a new soul..

2008-05-07T05:35:00.000-07:00

Tomowo i will havto sit for my impooovement exam=)
Wish me luck.
Not gonna blog today.
I stole a song from Hammie's blog - New soul by Yael Naim.
Me likey this song.

I'm a new soul

I came to this strange world

Hoping I could learn a bit bout how to give and take

But since I came here, felt the joy and the fear

Finding myself making every possible mistake

See I'm a young soul in this very strange world

Hoping I could learn a bit bout what is true and fake

But why all this hate? try to communicate

Finding trust and love is not always easy to make

Pathology gross spotters.

2008-05-05T14:35:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow i have my practical exam so am studying my spotters for patho. I seriously wanna puke seeing all these my god. WHY so gross one.

And guess what..i damn stresssss now cuz my lecturer asked me to sit for another exam cuz my internal marks is low, less 2 marks only actually. I am damn nervous now, i wanna pass my finalsss I wanna go 3rd year. What if i get retain & Joe goes to 3rd year how? Cuz he & Max studied MY NOTES( the beautiful colorful notes i spent time writing it ok) and they got higher marks than me la WTH rite? sigh. =( but at least i passed this time.SO lets see the spotters.

Fibroadenoma Breast.

Madura foot.

Leiomyoma of uterus.

Malignant melanoma of skin with lymph nodes.

What is this ahhhhhhhhhh?

Lan Jiao.

Hahaha.

Oopsss. ^^"

My god i am eating fried eggs nowwwwwwwwwwww. Ewww.

2008-05-04T12:20:00.000-07:00

Everytime i hav probs or whenever im moody, i'll feel a lot better after i blog it out.

Once a fortune teller told me, i live in this world and im only a human, thats why i have probs. (b4 i convert okay)

Anyways, i am better now. Its okay, cuz i never never done anything wrong. The person misunderstood me, fine. I've tried to make thgs better jz that it didn't turn out good.

Dear Father of heaven, i am sure u hear my probs all the time, u see wat i did esp for You, to glorify ur name. You know my pain, You saw the tears i shed, You took good care of my family for me when im away fr them.

Sending me off at KLIA.

Ok i shudn't be so emo.

*smiles*

My stomach has super power now.

Ytd i DID NOT eat breakfast & lunch.
I dun feel hungry at all, i only drank 1 glass of watemelon juice then few hours later i took 1 mango juice.
Then i went for dinner with the girls, but i can't finish my food!!!

We played games & we were so loud haha.

Pepper & mushroom lamb with Egg topping.

I ordered this and its damn salty YUKS. Why every1 likes sizzler ranch one? Cuz me no likey the food there.

HAHAKz. I am going to be thinner okay.
I used to be damn thin last time.
I duno why am i so happy about this, cz i din want this but i think all girls wanna be thin thats why. So bad=p
Yeah and today i only ate a few mouth of noodles & juz popcorn & nachos in the movie.
We watched IRON MAN together-gather today yah almost everyone came. SO HAPPY.

Then when we sped home with 2 bikes & 3 autos all together~ Then Joe & puvan tried letting go their hands while riding the bikes GOSH. Scarey. I kept telling Joe that my life is in his hand.

While I was on my way back i gaze up in the sky, the stars were shining brightly, so beautiful. I spotted one small cluster of stars,they look like the seven brightest stars called Pleiades, also known as SEVEN SISTERS=) I am serious!! Their names are Jing Ju, Yihui, Wendy, Shi Yun, Szesze, Yinyin & MinZhi.

I remember wendy told me i am like a tattoo in her heart. I wonder how she can alwaiz forgive me for my stupid temper.
And the girls here alwaiz tell me that i'm very very small, but when i stand bside her i look super big. But nvmla=)
I miss all of you. I miss my family. I miss everything in Msia.

and my precious ;)

I spoilt my precious baby meow meow dog kao kao everytime i come back and after i left my mum will have difficult time training this spoilt baby to be good again. Plus i plan to get another toy poodle to kek her. =p

I went to dance class today & yesterday. It was good. I've finished learning my quick steps & Jive. Now learning cha-cha-cha blueks. I miss those days when all of us learn ballroom together!

Then went clubbing for the very 1st time with Poo & winnie at Gold Finch ytd. Then the police gave an order to stop serving alcohol & everything jz end lidat at ard 1115pm ish ish dish dish bish bish. So they decided to go to the beach and i WISHED i reli wanted i HOPED i could join them, plus they kept asking me to come along but u know u know JOE was waiting for me to come back b4 he could oinkz oinkz like a pig so I came back. =) I am attached i know i jz can't be so selfish jz bcuz i wanna have fun.

So i came back early.

I'm a ffk queen ok. i ffk them so many timessssssss. Soreee=)

But is reli reli reli goooooood to have Joe with me here. He gives me all the freedom i want & takes care of me very well.

Baby face yellow boy.(cz sometimes he wears yellow shirt)

But one thing he hates my english accent that i got from Poo(her ex fr UK wat) & the Korean girl who sits beside me during practicals. U know, korean english. Lolz.

ANother thing,my stupid apartment has stupid curfew. Used to be 11.30pm now they changed to 10pm. They actually lock the gate at 10pm everyday ok. Crazy. I have to ring the stupid bell to wake the security guard up, and the StupidestTTTT thing is they have to record time, my name & flat no. in a book wtf.

I am coming home soon people.=) Alex said he's gonna plan KTV session for us again. I can't wait i can't wait to first PASS my exam then go back! hehe=p when i type the word p-a-s-s i feel so guilty.

KTV.

I wanna have fun.

Gtg study. been wasting my time for the past few days. *slaps self*

I Don't know. You hear me?

2008-05-01T02:57:00.000-07:00

*breathe in*
*breathe out*
I am gasping for air..
I cannot say Yes or No to a question..
All i can answer is dunno.
So if u ask me anything i won't wanna give my comment anymore k..
cuz I DUNO I DUNO I DUNO I DUNO!!!!!!!!
PhewHh.
And i am not lying I am not i am not URGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Sobs.
I am gasping for air...
I can't breathe.
p/s: my sinus gave me flu 24hours everyday & my eyes are super itchy so i alwaiz rub now i have super duper red eyes.

Yay!

2008-04-28T11:25:00.000-07:00

Miss me?
Sigh my eyebrow so thin now, the indian beautician laaa...Damn painful my tears fell like the rainNe.

I am so happy. Thinking of it makes me happy that is why i am here wasting my time(i'm suppose to be studying for my pracs exam tomoro!! Microbio & Dental Histo)
Why am i so happy? Haha u silly cuz u can't figure what am i tinking rite?

d= Am happy cuz am going homeeee.
AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Soooooooon.Very soon. But finals also coming sobs.
Am happy cuz hammie went shopping and bought a lot of stuff. so i am happy for him. *hint hint*
And Jerry gonna design a new bloggie for me am so happy tooo!!!
HAHAHAHA.
I wanna wear a white dress now and swing 10 rounds can?
Things i wanna do when i go back:
1. Yumcha with all of u of course.
2. Be a mad shopping queen.
3. Learn photoshop skill fr Jerry.
4. Spend more time with 7sis & hammie cuz so long din see u liow.
5. Get a new dog. Can i can i ? Scared my mum will kill me. But i pity my dog ok she alwaiz run out to find her frens then came back with all the skin diseases in the world OMG.
6. Travel. To hk/tw with wendy,Sze & the rest wna come? Sg with any1 who wants to go with me, etc.

7. Food hunt with Max & Joe. From KL-PENANG-KL-JB.

8. Err club? I tell u honestly, got bf d not nice to club one cuz u feel like u canot do bad thgs(drink/go out with other guys)..Well he allowed me to but i just feel bad. Sry babes I alwaiz din follow u girls to the club nowadays.

9. Genting casino with me anyone? i am not kaki gamble but i jz wanna seeeeee & experience. Any girls wanna go with me i can lend u my IC. hohoho.
10. Take some very chio studio pics. I dun like those mature type with thick make up, i want dreamy dreamy wan.

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goalIs to keep me from falling

NObody knows.

2008-04-26T05:49:00.000-07:00

I feel really hurt, offended.

For all the words you have used to judge me,
and me trying hard to use limited vocab of mine to explain seems to be a futile attempt.
Just feel like its so effortless yet i've tried so hard and yeah...I can feel the breathlessness in me.
My heart felt so pain that i wanna break down crying but i know, i've already told myself to tear less..less and less so that i wont be weak, and i dun wan people to think that i am weak either.

Well. fine.

And another thing, who sets the law saying anniversary must be special?
Nothing like this la. Today is my one year and one mth anniversary, and we're both like dead pigs. Theory exams jz over u see u see.

*BIG SIGH*

Nobody knows who i really am..I never felt this empty before..if i ever need someone to come along..who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong...

Pray for me.

2008-04-22T20:03:00.000-07:00

Tomoro is my 3rd sessionals.

I need to pass 3 subjects all together.
Sigh. I am confused.
Please, pray for me my sister n brother in christ.

Another thing that made me supa dupa happy is...
Hohoho...I even dreamt about it...
Is good to have frens in US u see..
I'm not gonna tell u what is it hmPh.
Shhh. Thx hammie.

And now i present me BANK STATEMENT.
GOSH.

Can i faint?

HOT HOT HOT.

2008-04-18T11:41:00.000-07:00

Let me tell u how hot is mangalore.
Its soooooooooooooooooooooooo hot here. so hot so hot so hawt OMG.
The moment i step out of my house i start sweating, even now i am sweating in the house.
I have to on9 in my room now with the AC cuz da hall is so hot.
I sweat after i finish bathing.
Our lapcoat became so wet when we work in the prostho lab.
This weather can kill, it's da hottest i've ever experience and it's crazy.
Thank God i have my aircond if not i won't be alive now.
And i dun wanna see my next electric bill.

It's sucha strong words.

2008-04-15T13:57:00.000-07:00

What kinda person you hate the most?
Hate, is sucha strong word.
I prefer da word dislike.
I dislike those who don't even wanna admit their mistakes when they are wrong,
Or perhaps they knew they were wrong but they just never seem to apologise.
Yet, they just let things there & ignore it.
So what if u act noffing hello? do u think u will make the other person feel better by doing that?
NONONO.
at least is a No for me.

I know i shouldn't have grudges over anyone, i shouldn't even dislike any God's creation but it's hard. I am sure it is hard for most of the christians to love their enemies, not only u will have to love them like how u love other people, u have to keep them in your prayers etc.

Well, this is out of my topic.

Snow much fun.

2008-04-14T01:34:00.000-07:00

So yeah the bday girl felt very happy on her bday!

Yay! We got to do our part as her close friends to make her happy!!! being away fr parents is very sad wan ok.

I stole all these pics from their facebook..hehehe.

Posing in da house..They stay in Milagres castle. Castle ok. ;p

OMG! too much. Eh i did this bcuz sum1 requested us to do it. oh well, SOMEONE.

Then, we brought her to Gold finch Hotel. bcuz she loves dancing.

Goodness. Da face expressEON.

Friends fr ballroom dance class.

Her pressie. I gave her da biggest bear with da scarft and a seashell with a heart shape rope small notebook. Ok i reli duno how to describe that.

Then brought her to Pegasus for seafood yesterday for lunch!!

After lunch with bday girl.

I tell u!! something really bother me soooooooo much for the whole week!! I had red red dots on my face!! what is that? Pimples? Impossible cuz i am 21 this year impossible the pimples just come suddenly!!!! Cuz me never had pimples b4..i mean small one yes la but not this type!! I am so scared. Will i look ugly? Ahhh. i am so worried.
Come i show u my naked......

Face.

So, i went to see the doc today=p I alwaiz alwaiz appear in the hospital u know..cuz we're on medicare so almost everything is FREE!

The doctor asked the PG to use magnifying glasses to observe the dotties on my face...and sweat she told me it's insect bite. Hmmm..O.o i doubt it.
She prescribed me with calamine lotion & safecet tablets. If there is anything come back next week. SIGH....see we shudn't take things for granted u see, last time i have smooth & clear face and i don't appreciate it..and now? look what happened? I don't wash my face properly after i came bek, i dun apply anything on my face i was too lazy and SEEEEEEEEEEEE..So girls, take care of ur face Properly!
Today is public holiday and i actually went to college for da backlog class. NO attendance ISH ISH ISH. But i reli need to finish my work & i need to remove some of my restoration bcuz the carving is not good! Sigh. Have to be more serious.

I just woke up.

Then, went to Froth on Top with max & Joe bcuz we wanted to discuss about our air ticket thingie. Cuz we planned to go and stay in the boat house in Kerala. I am so curious how we can stay inside a boat on a lake, won't we feel dizzy staying inside there? And i heard it cost a bomb.

Ytd i read XiaXue's blog and she talked about this MONTY HALL PROBLEM.
Suppose you're on a game show, and you're given the choice of three doors: Behind one door is a car; behind the others, goats.You pick a door, say No. 1, and the host, who knows what's behind the doors, opens another door, say No. 3, which has a goat.He then says to you, "Do you want to pick door No. 2 instead?" Is it to your advantage to switch your choice?

The answer is Yes. Because switching gives u 2/3 the chance of getting a car.
I experiment it with Joe ytd using poker card and Yes..the chances are more if u switch but why? Joe kinda explained to me. But still i feel that sumthing was missing.
SO i don wanna give up.
Today i presented the same question to max. And he answered 50/50.
Then we tried to figure it out. But to my atonishment, he got the "CAR" a lot of times by not switching.
Then, we saw these two JPA scholars came in. Hohoho. So we wanna test how high is the JPAs' IQ.
Then JunHui kinda explained to us but after sometime i felt reli bored bcuz of the never ending arguements of the guys.
Then Joe&Max told me they have black magic.
I have to tell Joe an object, then he will ask Max to guess what is that..and yeah he answered it correctly. So i think they were conning me, to prove it to me.. max went there to play with the JPAs and Joe guessed the object correctly.

Max's back facing Joe just to make sure they don't cheat.

And he got the answer!! I still don't get it....WHY?

Am gonna bug Joe to tell me NOW!
TATA.

Happy Birthday to my Sweetheart, baby Pooh.

2008-04-12T15:33:00.001-07:00

From taylor's till now, i've known her more than 3 years.

I know i was very clingy, i stick to her most of the times, cuz i felt most comfortable being with her. *because a bitch told me that the girls hate me..sucha story maker made me feel so errmm awkward when i 1st joined them, i'm sure most of u know who was it. ML loh.*

Then people began to tell me this is not true, those are the nice people i met in taylors & most importantly this girl POORNIMA.

It was her that i gained my confidence back, it was all her that i get along well with the girls. and they NEVER ok..Never ever judge me before..These people are so nice and when i was with all of them, I SWEAR i NEVER heard them saying anything bad about ANYBODY. O.o~

Me likey my life in Taylors.
This important girl in my life, brought me to the club for the very very 1st time. Can u believe it? She is from SP ok..SUNGAI PETANI and she taught a KL girl how to partay. I remember how my dad waited downstairs of her hostel just to pick me up at 3am. Ahhh, my parents are so sweet to me, they want me to sleep at home u see.

As usual on ladies night, meet up in Taylor's hostel then go to the club! bad pic!

Then, we finished our SAM and she went back to SP. I was sad cuz thought i will never ever see her again.

Sam coroboree.

But she alwaiz come down to KL and we will definately have our usual night time activity. We used to like ZOUK alot until a night there was a police raid there, the polices caught 2 of my frens back to BALAI bcuz they were underage. Since then, we have to show our ICs to get the entrance chop on our hands, thats when the girls started to beg for other girls' ic just to get in. I remember i never begged for any ic bcuz i was just too shy and they will do it for me. =) hohoho. naughtay.

On her bday posing @ Topshop.

Last min decision to go clubbing on her day. I don't even have the time to go home and change.

Again she came before X'mas.

1st day of college in INDIA.

And when we have the *erhem* the urge to club, we would run to manipal no matter how horrible the bus ride is.

Blue waters @ manipal.

The funniest thing is, our designer owns this club in manipal, and she requested him to close his club slightly later. ;p

In her house. Oh my i love ur Dior make up set!!

Our lesbo dance. Always,to scare the guys away.

And today, we both got into deep shits bcuz of attendance shortage. We had to meet the DEAN! with many many other batchmates as well. Outside dean's office.

I rmb u told me b4, from taylor's to India, life changed a lot. Yes as u said, this is a shit place compared to our days in Taylor's, but it is all cause of this shit place, we became much more closer. Because of you, my days here seem to be better. I can't imagine my life without you here. You once told me b4, that u will never leave me, and will alwaiz be there when i need you, these words are enough to touch my heart.

And I, will remember you for the rest of my life, Thank You for everything my dear friend.

Pray for me!

2008-04-10T12:10:00.000-07:00

My sleeping time is upside down right now.
I slept in the afternoon the whole week..And i only wake up to study at night.
I am so worried. I need to pass my 3rd sessionals. PLease pray for me.
I need to pass my finals too if not i will be repeating my 2nd yr. Oh gosh i don't want that to happen!!

Dwelling on the past.

2008-04-09T16:16:00.000-07:00

It's almost 5am now. Just woke up from my 2 hours sleep.
Gonna continue with my studies..I think i am doing really really slow compared to the others..
I am scared. I want to pass. I don't want to be in supplementary batch where ur roll number has to be the last few.
At this moment of time i tend to think a lot..I found the word to describe my feelings now. It's just a simple word, but yet people will ask..If u are not "in it" anymore, why care?
God created us with a heart, with feelings..sometimes things get a lil complicated and i dun even know how to express it out.
I was angry, I questioned, I burst out to the girls because i really duno what to do, or where to go perhaps? The reason is..we both love the same group of girls. I used to think, what if she is there if i join them for dinner, shopping..etc. I guess i just think too much cuz i know the rest of u still love me as much no matter what i do.
I felt betrayed. I felt pain. I felt angry. I felt helpless. I felt lonely. I felt worthless loving you. And in the end i felt disgusted.
What is the reason? No reason but these feelings were killing me. I know i shouldn't but couldn't help it. Now the days are near, we gonna meet each other again. "Don't let the past haunt u.." Yes i know, i knew it earlier b4 anyone tells me about this. But again, my brain & my heart never seem to corporate, i am bias..i only listen to what my heart says.
I don't want the same thing to happen again. Or maybe i should OPEN my heart. yes OPEN UP OPEN UP GIRL! I think i should. And i really really love u girl, u mean so much to me.
I'm reli glad that our bestie tried to patch things up instead of being a BATU API to ruin this frenship. Thank U. ur effort is much appreciated.
Still loving u after years..Love never faded.

Happy belated birthday, Yun.

2008-04-09T01:12:00.000-07:00

OMG!

I am so sorry my baby sistah!
Can i like err...slap myself now? How can how can i forgot to wish u on ur day..No wonder i felt like there is sumthing missing for these past few days.

ok now...

Pictures!! Pictures!! *clap clap*

In da class. CLaSS!

School library.

2 years ago on ur bday.

Spm results day.

Asia cafe. This is really bad. =p

Happy belated birthday my darling sistah baby yun.
U are only 20 this year. Gosh i am 21.
I lub euuuuuu.
U can kill me ok.

Manipal again...

2008-04-07T12:04:00.000-07:00

I am sooooooo tired rite now.

The classes in the afternoon were canceled so i suggested to go Manipal for Nasi Lemak!!!

So Max, Joe & I went there by bus. O.o~

The bus ride was horrible, sumore it was Max's 1st time.=p He couldn't stand the bus ride.When he told me he need to sit down and rest for a while, i burst out laughing. ;D

Recently, Joe & I have allergy reaction towards the gloves we used to wear. The kind HOD told us about this Vinyl gloves but we can't find it here. But...finally we got it from the dental shop in Manipal.

It's powder free! But it cost a lil more than the ones with powder.It is thick and transparent.

Anywayz, didn't get to drink the soya bean in ThaiLin cuz the chinese aunty suddenly disappeared. She made da soya bean herself!! I saw it in her kitchen. Dunno what happen to her. She was born in India, then shifted to China then after the husband died she came back to India all alone, her kids are all in Canada. She told me before she is the only chinese in India. I really wanna ask her bout her story but i dare not. She's very pitiful staying there alone. Sigh.

Then we met up with the student studying same course same batch as us in Manipal campus. Surprisingly, only 3 Malaysians are there in the II B.D.S batch. My god. I really dunno how they survive there but they seem quite happy. I'm really glad to meet such nice people, unlike some of the Malaysians here in Mangalore, so many conflicts, gossips. Sumthing happened lately and i just dunno how to lend my hand to the girl. This incident made me realized that how lucky am I to have my group of nice friends by my side. At least i know, they care so much about me, my feelings & are alwaiz there for me. And some seniors here are really really nice.

We ate soooo much and i kinda regretted. I dun feel well cuz i think the food are not properly digested due to the bus ride. We felt like puking the moment we got down from the bus. The air here is highly polluted, I was wearing mouth mask truout the whole journey. Everyone stared at me like an alien but i don't care, cuz i am allergic to dust & i dun want my sinus symptom to come back again.

ANd....finally..finally...

We have baskin robin here!!! YAY! ^^

And please i want McDonals tooooooo!!!~

ALL THE SAME

2008-04-03T13:14:00.000-07:00

So warm. But i think i will feel super duper awkward when i hug a stranger=)

"All the same"

I dont mind where you come from

As long as you come to me

But I dont like illusions I cant see

Them clearly

I dont care, no I wouldn't dare

To fix the twist in you

You've shown me eventually what you'll do

I dont mind

I dont care

As long as you're here

Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again

You'll just come back running

Holding your scarred heart in hand

It's all the same

And I'll take you for who you are

If you take me for everything

And do it all over again

It's all the same

Hours slide and days go by

Till you decide to come

But in-between it always seems too long

Suddenly

But I have the skill, yeah

I have the will, to breath you in while I can

However long you stay is all that I am

I dont mind, I dont care

As long as you're here

Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again

You'll just come back running

Holding your scarred heart in hand

It's all the same

And I'll take you for who you are

If you take me for everything

And do it all over again

It's always the same

Wrong or Right

Black or White

If I close my eyes

Its all the same

In my life

The compromise

I'll close my eyes

Its all the same

Go ahead say it

You're leaving

You'll just come back running

Holding your scarred heart in hand

It's all the same

And I'll take you for who you are now

If you take me for everything

Do it all over again

It's all the same

Typing speed increased.

2008-03-31T08:22:00.000-07:00

81 words

Speedtest

HOHOHOHOHO!

Messages for my 7 sistahs.

2008-03-31T07:39:00.000-07:00

I miss all of u a lot. My sistahs.

Just finished reading all of ur blogs..i dunno why i din get to see the bday wishes on most of ur blogs. I only saw it after some time and now as i read back, i felt so warm, so touched. Weird thing the posted date was on my bday...*scratch head again*

Dy, Yun..I guess what u both are experiencing now is just part of life..every1 goes tru it, even me. Surely after pain, rainbow of happiness will arrive. Maybe u both should take one step forward, and u can see..what are the beautiful things that are awaiting for both of u.

Zhi, Don't alwaiz skip class..cuz i alwaiz skip class here! *sweat* Don't cuz when u got attendance shortage u will struggle reli reli hard just to compensate them. but..i am very lazy. I am struggling and forcing myself to study. I am just..haha lazy in nature.

Hui, I am glad u are now so holy, and He has changed u so much. I never expected this from u baby. Anyone wants my India number pls ask from Hui.=) Hui, appreciate what u got infront of u..Some things only come once in a life time..

Sze, I really really am missing u a lot. I dunno how to express my feelings to u. Cuz sumtimes i feel that i can't catch u..what u are thinking..But i reli love u..n i felt that i have neglected u a lot..I just told dy about it yesterday..I wanna show u that i love u more..Rmb to go shopping with me again in June okie baby.

Yin, I rmb how i caught ur dog back to my house and got scolded from my mama. Haha..since we stay so near to each other i think we shud walk our dog together more! Plus sze is getting a doberman..Babe, i know u are alwaiz there for me, thanks & do take care of urself. Study hard and dun alwaiz hang kai kai cuz u're reli very HAPPENING in monash. Wna hang kai wait for me~
Watched this clip during lunch break..The beginning is a bit boring but it's quite meaningful..i teared watching this...God is so real..this video made me realized that God is alwaiz there for me eventho sumtimes i can't feel the presence..Yun shud watch this ok=p

I know..i can't please anyone in this world..is a thing to learn, as long as i did my part..go on & hate me/ spoil my name..as i know i can never please anyone..and i will never try to please you..=)

2008-03-30T15:14:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm...

I really dunno what to blog about today=)

Well, i went to church. I like the worship today & veron is in the worship team! I kept tipping my toe to see her...hohoho!

Came home, slept for ard 5 hours..Gosh! My earlier plan was to go manipal to eat nasi lemak & nasi lemak & nasi lemak plus some Msian food. Not forgetting the teh tarik. Slurrps. I am so hungry now sigh.

Went for groceries shopping & booked a lychee cake..gonna collect it tomoro! and lately i am deeply in love with the egg puff in india. So tasty!

Then we went library to study for a while. Studied very little cuz mummy called me and we talked for so long...and i saw an accident outside my college while i was talking!

I couldn't concentrate today so i camwhore in the lib. I stopped doing that when a few indian guys looked at me and SMILE. *ueks*

Then slip of tongue by Joe(cz i tricked him), the watch he gave me is so ex. I mean..more ex than i expected.
Hehe. Feel so bad that he alwaiz spend on me.
I'm currently "pai ka", in cantonese "pai kiok"...When my dance teacher tried to dip me..I was afraid that i will fall so i supported my whole body weight myself and now my muscles are aching. So i skipped class today.=p
Okie time to sleep.

Every girl who stayed in the same hostel as me knows i'm a pajama freak. This is one of my bday present fr winnie & brenda.

Good nite everyone.

Have a pleasant dream.

My typing speed.=p

2008-03-27T11:48:00.000-07:00

73 words

Speedtest

Can u beat my speed?
Tag :Sze
:Hammie

One year anniversary.

2008-03-26T11:42:00.000-07:00

1stly...Happy ONE year anniversary to Me & Joe.

Time flies

It's been a year but I feel like we just started the relationship. Hehe *scratch head* i really dunno why.

I can't say that we've been tru a lot..Thank God not much ups & downs for us.but we quarreled a lot, cuz we see each other everyday. He said the tears i cried can flood the whole apartment. Can't help it cuz we shared the same hobby, fighting.

I used to think every guy is the same. At the beginning of the relationship they will love u and pamper u like a princess but at the end they will be insincere to the girl.
But he is exceptional. He treats me the same like how he treated me when we begin the relationship.

He never fails to be there whenever i need him, alwaiz so sweet & pamper me lk a little princess. I know, he is a blessing to me.

The 1st pic we took.

I can hear him giggling in my studyroom, he & max bought this gun with laser and he is now aiming at the people on the street. They saw the laser light now looking here and there searching for this alien.=>

Starry starry night

2008-03-23T09:49:00.000-07:00

I just finished 40 episodes of 'Heart of Greed'.

So dramatic my gosh I cried so much!

Cz one of the actor looks like my dad i guess=p They look exactly the same to me!!

I am slowly recovering..i've been spending my whole week on the bed and watching series.

I've been feeling so so tired, i can't do anything & all i can do was just sleep sleep and just sleep.

Sigh.

HEALTH is so important u know.

When i was sick, i thought something is really wrong with my body, i tot of going for MRI scan for my brain, blood test and etc. I thought i have cancer la. Sobs. Now i am slowly recovering, can joke, jump, sing & SCOLD PEOPLE. hohoho. ^^

I am in love with this song now..............

"....Now I understand what you tried to say to me,

How you suffered for your sanity,

How you tried to set them free.

They would not listen,

they did not know how.

Perhaps they'll listen now...."

Sinusitis.

2008-03-20T10:02:00.000-07:00

I have been feeling very tired and i have headache for the whole week.

I went to hospital & i took the X-ray.

I have Acute sinusitis.(going on less than 4 weeks) I am not familiar with this sickness but i know there are many people out there having this sickness. Tell me more bout it pls.=)

My Maxillary sinus & Frontal sinus have been affected, and slightly on the Ethmoid.

P/s: mayb u might think it's nothing, but please be considerate cuz i'm suffering. I am not acting that i'm sick. I am not exaggerating..This feeling is like SHIT lah. I want a speedy recovery but i heard sinusitis canot be cured!!! Nvm i will take the antibiotic RIGHT now. I believe God will heal me!

15,000 for a lessson.

2008-03-17T04:20:00.000-07:00

No words can express my feeling rite now.
Depress is the word i guess.
Me & my ex-hsemate spent 15k for a lesson today.
Just because we read the agreement of the previous house wrongly.
It was our mistakes, we have no choice but to let the owner to step on our head.
Like she said, we're slapping our own face now.
He demanded everything fr us...Every single cents he deduct and he deduct and he continues deducting...
He knew we have class but he made everything so slow, he was so long winded..until we missed our class...
Why this fucking turban singh has to be so money minded? Damn.
I felt so bad for everything, for my parents & Joe. Cuz he missed class too bcuz of me.
And now everything is settled. He deducted 15k fr my 40k deposit. so YAH. so blardy unfair.
Ok. I'm feeling better.

Gotta go for my dancing class soon.
I'm learning ballroom dance lately. I've fin learning quick step and now i am learning Jaive.
Joe came to see me dance ytd & thank God he wasn't angry seeing me dancing with another guy.
Went for Russian circus ytd. Gosh got some handsome russian guys riding on the horsey.
But seriously, i think the performers & animals are very pitiful cz they have to perform 3 times a day, so dangerous!!!
Thats all i guess. I need to bath before i go for ballroom.
Taaa.

Vantage Point.

2008-03-13T11:31:00.000-07:00

8 strangers.

8 points of view.
1 truth.
Just fin watching Vantage Point.
I love the action scene oh my gosh. So nice.
and i ate too much popcorn d. =(

Baby mango.

2008-03-13T04:50:00.000-07:00

Hey, it's mango season now.
I eat mango like almost everyday. Yummy.
The mango here are soooooo sweet.
Few days ago i found some raw baby mango & i decided to make pickled mango.
I just realised its existence today so we decided to pickle it today.
But..but but..
I CUT MYSELF.
I screamed so loud. Cuz it's so painful.
I chop my left thumb so freaking hard. The wound is sooooo sooo deep.
I washed it to stop the hemorrhage & now Joe is doing everything.
I pretended like i wanna help after that but he said No. So i am shaking my leg now.

He said im trying to make him look like a kampung boy.

I remember daddy used to like my pickled mango so so much. awhh I wanna give this to my dad cuz it's so hard to find raw mango in Msia. ( I alwaiz pluck from my grandpa's tree, he'll nag me cuz he said the baby mango can grow bigger one, alah kiam siap)

I can't wait i can't wait to EAT it=p

Bye.

10,000 B.C

2008-03-11T11:45:00.000-07:00

Just fin watching 10,000 B.C!
It was gooooood.

Good nite everyone.

Malpe, India.

2008-03-11T05:36:00.000-07:00

Went to Malpe beach near Manipal last weekend.

Gosh. More beaches = darker skin + FRECKLES.

OMG. I can't believe i have freckles on my face now.

I can't believe it. I wanna faint can?

ANywayz..my face is better now after i apply face mask. PhewwWw.

I went for camel ride.

Cammie's head fr the top.

They're having some competition & they became shorter!!

Me same height as gaya see.

Joe became shorter than me!

For once im taller than brenda!

I really got no idea what is this. They said it's a jelly fish.

Beauty.

Me in the pyjamas Bren & winnie bought me.

Simply bought this.

I spent all these.

It's time for me to guai guai sit down and stop travelling.

Those were the days.

2008-03-06T09:51:00.000-08:00

Fell in love with this song today...

.....Stop and stare

You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there

And you'd give anything to get what's fair

But fair ain't what you really need

Oh, can u see what I see.....

Reminds me of what i've done during my form 2 year..

I was indolent, doesn't study for anything...

I remember yin alwaiz print lyrics & stick them in one book..

We'll sing the song by looking at the lyrics whenever we feel like it..

We bring only junk food to class..

Got punished by teacher to stand for the whole period cuz forgot to bring my geography text book..

Got caught by discipline teacher cuz me & yin walked to yun's class for mentos..(stupid Mr.ANG)

He made us stand infront of the class cuz of this..he's so childish!! Why can't why can't we eat MENTOS?

Sigh. Those were the days.

~^^'/

My 21st birthday.

2008-03-05T06:45:00.000-08:00

My 21st Birthday Celebration @ Taj Manjarun Hotel.

Seems like a wedding partay.

Awwwh they came so early jz for me.

Raw raw....meat~

Waiter serving drinks.

Surprises for me & Puvan.

Hehehe. I'm so happy ok.

Surprise!! ^^v

Gosh. So damn happy.

Make a wish. ( i actually said world peace OMG xD)

Look at the 2 1 on my cake.

Joe feeding me..

Us girls playing games..

I heart my girls.

I wanna thank my babies( Brenda, Veron, Winnie & Poo) for planning this party for me, thx for making my days. Without them i'll be spending my 21st alone(or maybe cry with Joe) hehe since i decided not to go home on my bday. I regretted that i din go back to see my parents cuz i reli miss them alot but im glad i have all of u here.
Thanks for the pressies n the cards i LOVE THEM.
Thank you Gaya i know u did a lot too. Thanks for the bday card.
Lastly, thx every1 for coming to my bday. MWAHSSSS & HUGSSS.

My trip to GOA, India.

2008-03-02T02:29:00.000-08:00

I'm back from GoooOoAaaaAaahhHHh.

1st day..

Reached our hotel around 5pm. Was so damn hungry, had food in hotel then as usual went out for shopping!!

Dinner at Souza D'lobo. (Joe's bro intro to us) It's a beach side restaurant.

Lobster ahhhh.

Squid. Maccoroni cheese prawn.

These food was enough to make my stomach burst. We were so full din't even finish the food.

2nd day..

Me on the swing.

Me & Joe.

At Vagator Beach.

Then we headed to Baga beach. So crowded & it was full of whites. We're the only chinese there i guess.

Can u see any naked whites behind me?

Sunbathing.

Nail Art. OoOh pamper pamper.

I love doggie. I can't stand being away fr my dog so i sayang this doggy for while.

We went for parasailing!! Not scarey.=p

We're flying!!

Went to Nine Bar at nite. The bar closes at around 1130, u will get to know the after party place. We went and it was a villa, owned by the whites with dance floor & drinks selling there. But i was kinda lost the whole nite cuz i dunno how to dance with trance music. and the whites are really open, they can simply hug any1 and start kissing. My gosh O.o"

3rd day..

Pic taken while waiting for our driver.The dog is sitting on the stairs so cute.

Went to see the dolphin dancing in the morning sun at coco beach=) I wanna swim with them again la but they are wild dolphines so it's unsafe.

The best pic we could snap is jz lidat=/

The Prison.

Went to see the fort left by the portugese at Sikirem Beach.

Us.

View fr the fort.

Then came back to Coco beach for fishing in the afternoon.
Ish. I got nothing.
Gosh. We felt so so dizzy cz the the man stopped the boat in the middle of the sea!

4th day?
I decided to come back to Mangalore=p 3days are just nice & enough for me & i need a good rest for class tomoro.
Thanks for the birthday wishes my dear friends.

Happy Birthday to ME!

2008-02-26T11:43:00.000-08:00

Today is one of the happiest day in my life!!!
They surprised me by having pool side BBQ. Wuah=)
Hehehe. I'll post up the pic soon.
I can't believe im 21 now.

Updates : Freedom of speech is now banned in my blog=) LOL. Just like i said, i am often misunderstood..U are not me, nothing lk me so u won't know whether i'm happy or not, so just continue to think that i'm pretending to be happy.

But i'm seriously very happy! MUAHAHAHAHA.
I'll post up the pics soon.

Birthday Pressie from BABY.

2008-02-25T07:50:00.000-08:00

So sweet of him.=>

Yes i forgive u for ur awesome wrapping.

I knew its gonna be a watch.

Ta dah!

I wove I wove=p Mwahs mwahs. I cried when i see this cuz we just faught ytd. =/

But he got no patience to hide it anymore so he gave it to me today & he's afraid that we'll fight again.

2nd pressie lalala..

GOA trip 4Days 3 Nites.

Yay! i can't wait i can't wait. I heard it's a place like heaven with all the nice beaches & clubs. Wohoooo. Imagine clubbing on the beach. And drugs are all legal i heard. I HEARD=p The place is conquered by the whites.

***

Last saturday i went to Manipal to club.

I can't wait to blog about my pressie 1st. Sowee.

And every club there closes at 1130 due to some prob with the police OMG.

2nd day erMm obviously i went for nasi lemak=) I miss Msian food.

Then i ta pao 10 hundred plus back from Manipal. SO heavy! cuz i love 100 plus la so being a silly girl i actually carried it back.

The nxt day,Poo told me she saw them in Mangalore.

*faints*

Look at the manipal campus...they got nice library, everything is air-conditioned...

But here in Mangalore? fuiyoh u won't wanna see our college. They don't even have a proper campus. But manipal is too boring u can just stand on the street and stare at those cars, wondering what to do.

The fountains.

Sigh. It's ok God placed me here in Mangalore for a reason. HAPPY birthday to me tomorrow! I wanna continue to shine for Jesus.

Life is simple & beautiful.

2008-02-22T10:37:00.000-08:00

22/02/08

OH MY GOSH.

I'm feeling so so dizzy.
i suffocated myself with the insecticides i sprayed in my new house. My gosh.
Joe told me to spray at the holes under the basin & i did. Guess what? All the coacroaches came out of the holes n gosh it was so gross. SO SCAREY!!!!!

23/02/08

Shit. I flung my Oral Anat & Histo by 2 marks? WTF?
F who? F the who wasted my damn time rite b4 exam.

Ok.

After i think over it, think about God's effort in my life, and His wonderful plan for me i think i should stop blaming anyone else but ME myself. It was my mistakes to let others to interfere with my life, to distract me, it was my mistakes to love a friend so much who doesn't even deserves my love.It was my mistake for not being able to control my anger. I know. This is a lesson fr God for me. For the both of us.

Once a curse is said, two graves are dug.

Someone told me that i had sucha big reaction cuz my friends are very important to me. and i am being too passionate. What if ur friend jz got to kno someone just for 2 days and she started bitching bout ur past? bitching bout Me & G*** cz she hates the shit outta both of us? Why ur close friend has to dig out the past & stab ur wound again? What is ur purpose of doing that?

An email from my bestie made me feels a lot better..

Dear, for now just concentrate on ur studies first okie..In a friendship it's
a matter of give n take..If some one keep bugging u midnight of the night it's
just ntg much than a childish act..But i can't judge anything cos i dunno ur
situation thr.. If u think u did ntg wrong don't be afraid of them okie!! In a
friendship, it's important to 大事化小，小事化无。No point over react over small
matter..Bringing out small matter out will only destroy the friendship.Don't
worry kie...No matter what happen u still have Joe by ur side...And ME over
here.. I'm more than willing to listen to ur complains.=p
Why argue with someone who doesn't even wanna admit her mistakes? At least i kno i was rude, and i asked for God's forgiveness.

Life is too beautiful to be bitched about. I am often misunderstood. It's a waste of time to please everyone & to explain to people when they misunderstood u.Or they just wanna step on u cuz they know u are soft.(means nice to bully lah)Oh well, I don't wanna get angry anymore & i'm not supposed to. But after the incident i am closer to the girl. Whom i once misunderstood her bcuz of her, complicated yea? Life is so simple. We made it complicated. and now i wanna be simple & I have to control my temper=p

I have much more important things to do in the world & some people just can't be bothered.
Lately i've been thinking alot of the people i used to know when i was young,such sweet memories. Esp my cousin. After knowing what had happened to her i think about her almost everyday. I pray that God will heal her.

I wanna be a volunteer in WorldVision to help the needies or SPCA to take care of the cutie animals. I had signed up the form online & they will inform me if there is any upcoming events.

Oh ya. My dog is pregnant i guess. She was raped by a chihuahua a week ago. =.=" Anyone wants the puppies? To own a dog u have to be very loving, caring, patient etc. BUt i think the pups will look a bit weird don't u think so? =/

I miss my dog.

Where are u?

2008-02-21T11:07:00.000-08:00

You pushed me..and I fell down on the floor..

you walked away, and I..was being left alone.

I dunno what to say..and i dunno where to start.

I had nightmares. I saw her in my dream. She was all alone.

Anywayz..have u seen her?

The women on the left.

The women wearing yellow on the right.

Name : Lim Poh Choo
Age: Probably in her mid 70's now.
She used to stay in Kepong.

The baby in the 1st pic is Shang Yee Shian.I really hope to see them again.

Please email me at jj.rainne@gmail.com for any details.

Thankie=)

All about edison's sex scandal photos.

2008-02-15T17:10:00.000-08:00

What?!!

U think i'm gonna post the pictures here?

NONO. N-O no.

Since i'm so free in India, I kepo about Edison's sex scandal news almost everyday.

For some of u who don't know...Why Kira released these photos?

And i guess u guys gonna be disappointed because...

Rumors are that Kira received 7 million HK dollars to disappears forever. As the scandal continues into its third week, Edison will return to Hong Kong on Sunday to give a formal statement about someone stealing pictures from his computer. He may have to testify. Reports also say Nicholas Tse and Cecilia Cheung are seperating and will divorce as a result of these pictures which were seemingly taken right before their marriage. The paternity of their children is now in question as a result of Cecilia Cheung affair.
The curtain has dropped, all the photos we have seen thus far were screen captures from videos. Gill’s photos were the first 10 minutes of the video, why? Because it was a used as a bargaining chip for extortion. Secondly, the audio of the video involves the reputation of many other big-name celebrities.
Gaoqing (who?) has over 1000 photos alone, and they were partially released last year. The first time Edison’s photo got released was the result of a hacker. This hacker has the most complete data. In order to protect himself from hackers and trojans, he transferred part of his data to his Apple computer. Apple does not run Windows, and most trojan are designed towards windows. The photos that were stolen during his computer repair is only a small part, and that is to the person we come to know as Kira. Photos of Vincy Yeung released on the 9th was unexpected from EEG Music. As we know, Edison’s photo all came in a set, and every women has a complete collection including the sexual parts. Usually they are released in few numbers first, then released in completion. So Vincy has a complete collection too.
Kira’s upload on the 9th, 4:45 is the last upload from Kira. He had an agreement with EEG in the amount of 700 hk dollars. Why did Gill’s manager said Gill would appear on the 11th? Because they have came to an agreement with Kira. After the money is received he needs 24 hours to confirm payment, also time for him to flee. As a matter of fact, the photos he has have already been uploaded to various free servers in the United States and Europe. If the discussion does not fall into place or if anything were to happen to him, he has set automatic emails that would email the links to his trustworthy friends, so they can spread the files. The reason Gill appears in front of the media on the 11th, and the fact that she had a big smile on her face, was because she knew the ordeal has came to a rest.
What’s Kira’s gain for showing us the photos? What does he get by destroying the life of these celebrities? He is not a warrior of morals, he’s just a regular Hong Kong citizen. Money is his ultimate choice. So everyone, please stop calling for him, he has disappears forever. From tomorrow, there’s a lot more entertainers going to entertain us, and the danger is over. It is disappointed for us, but we all know the reason behind Kira’s action.
Gossip
The photos actually were stolen a long time ago. At first Kira talked to Edison, asking for 5 million HK dollars, but was not agreed upon. Edison was afraid he won’t be able to get back all the photos. He looked for Yeung Shou Cheng (EEG’s president) to help him on the matter. Eventually, Kira released some information to the media, the magazines last year briefly mentioned this matter. However because of EEG’s influential power, magazines were afraid to show the photos nor pay Kira. Through the help of magazine’s editor, one of the three members from Kira’s group was found. He knew whether he surrender the photos or not, he was doomed. He did not say anything while being question, and was eventually killed. The other two then fled to Southeast Asia, and again try to distort EEG and Edison. Before the matter gains public attention Edison already knew, because both parties could not agree on a price, this time Kira was asking more than 10 millions.
Edison took a private car to Shenzhen, then to Macau, took a private plane from his dad’s friend to the United States, and look for Vincy Yeung to help his cause. Yeung Shou Cheng thought he could handle the matter, but eventually it was still not solved. Kira has decided to raise the price, and released the photos the night when Edison fled HK. Since that day Kira has been raising his price every day. It is believed Kira is in Thailand and Indonesia, and Kira is a group of two, and the data has been uploaded to the United States.
Do not think you have seen the best of all, why hasn’t C10’s and Maggie Q’s photo being released? Because Kira hasn’t gotten the right price, or because of safety reason, there isn’t a safe way for him to get paid.
Right now, both parties are fighting. The involvement of HK police has propelled this tension to its maximum. If Kira is sure he couldn’t get his money, there’s gonna be a monster upload, but not all. The reason is because there’s heavy involvement from other celebrities, including HK, China and Taiwan. If Kira wants to live longer than Edison, he would have to have something to protect himself from.
Vincy’s 3 photos was a declaration of power to EEG, showing Kira has even better materials. This action forced EEG to come to the table, leaving the police behind. Bobo’s photos that were uploaded today were no longer of importance, since she was only a sacrifice in this whole matter. However, Vincy, C10 and Maggie Q, definitely will not be released today. Because this is Kira’s ultimate chip. And the most controversial material in Kira’s collection?
It is obvious what is going to happen to Edison, he’s going to die unnaturally. Edison has made some very powerful people in HK very angry. Vincy's father and uncle is said to have links to several HK triads and is probably not very happy about the whole affair. Vincy herself has said she will stand by Edison Chen. Edison is stupid if he think Vincy can safe him from the men in her family if they really wanted to kill him. -from gutterpost-
I really pity all of them. Please stop forwarding the pics or post it in internet. Every1 makes mistakes, it's time for them to learn, please give them a chance okie=)

Ups & downs.

2008-02-15T03:20:00.000-08:00

Life is all about ups & downs.
Trust me.=) U can't predict what will happen next..U might be at the top of the world..and next moment u will be in the smelly drain.
Haha.
This morning my pharmac viva went sooooo well. The mam praised me, telling me that I have potential, just that i need to study harder. I happily jumped out from her office.
Then my Pharmac pracs spotters went okay. I could answer almost everything..Then comes the prescription parts, I was confused with the steps & my viva for it went so bad. Even the mam jz stared at me and showed me her disappointed looks.
Then this afternoon i had tooth carving. When i tot everything went so well, the moment the invigilator screamed it's the last 5 mins of the carving time, I was too rough with my wax and i broke it. I BROKE MY TOOTH!
The moment i broke it, i just said OH GOD. It's weird that my reaction was just like that.
Whole entire tooth = 18 marks. I broke my base, so minus 3 marks. After discussing with Joe & Max, I realized i did not carve any lingual fossa, minus 2 marks, my distal slope is not longer than mesial one, deduct 2 marks, dimensions for sure mine is not accurate one loh, minus 1 mark.HOW LAH? *sobs*

Happy Valentine's Day!

2008-02-14T05:46:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's day!!!

As u can see from the pics...We just cin cin cai cai celebrate our V'day cuz it's on exam day.

I'm sure u can see my dark circles blueks!

Today i went to class cuz my attendance is really low...
and sir is chooo Funny he played WHO WANTS TO BE A MILLIONAIRE with us.

HAHAHA. I kinda admire this sir cuz he got this sense of humour in him and most importantly every1 listens to him!!! cuz he has surprise gift for whoever that can answer his 6 questions continuously.and he is very tall & got nice body ^o^~

SO yeah Have a Wonderful Valentine's Day Everyone. *xoxo*

I love white roses.=)

See what i did.

2008-02-11T19:03:00.000-08:00

Guess what i'm doing now?
Guess why i'm still at home now?

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!
I SKIPPED MY SECOND SESSIONAL PATHO&MICRO PAPER!!!
i have no confident.
I didn't study much for this paper.
And i hate the feeling of being in the exam hall but dunno nuts about anything..
So...I am comfortably sitting here now...Please pray for me so that i'll be healthy during the nxt coming sesional to score well for this subject to compensate my marksssss!
Gonna start studying for my nxt paper soon.
So bye bye.

^^v

You're more than enough for me.

2008-02-11T05:11:00.000-08:00

OH mY gosh.
1st time in my life in India i feel that LIFE IS FULL OF LOVE.

I was praying for a good owner the whole day ok.
WOah. God is giving more than what i can take.
Ok la im a bit too exaggerating.

I am gonna stay alone if u all duno=)
And...I requested to pay half for the things that he will furnish for me.
I asked for Aircond, Fridge, Curtains, Mosquito net, water filter, water heater...
And he agreed to give me everything......................
FOR FREEE!!!!

Wah God is so good. And 1st time i see sucha good indian!
He is so well-educated unlike my lousy owner now.
Hohohoho.
Excited sialz.

And i really duno how to calculate with some1 who is so calculative.

U are my lifetime - 7 Sis.

2008-02-08T02:23:00.000-08:00

Updates ~ She called my MAMA! I'm done with her. Watever!

Received this from Gaya, Quite true.

People come into your life for a REASON,
A SEASON or A LIFETIME.

When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty,
to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time,

this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met,

our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered
and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime
lessons, things you must build upon in order
to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person and

put what you have learned to use in all other relationships

and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Now that i officially give my heart to all of u, my dearie 7 sistahs. And i wanna tell u all that i really miss u all so damn a lot in this festive season. Cuz u all are a LIFETIME to me, who came into my life no matter with or without a reason, i just love u girls to bits. Esp after fin reading Zhi's blog. Update more girl!
May you all stay healthy, happy & pretty alwaiz!

We all looked like Wai sek meow meow!~

Choo uglie=) But it's ok i have 2 lengluis here to pamper me.

Next time, Zhi, Hui, Yun & Yin should kiss me. On my June bday celebration okie.

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

P/s : there is this big big bird, they called it KITE, tried attacking Joe n his hsemate at their balcony. I'll snap a clearer pic of it n show u all the big fat bird ok. Chooo scary. OOooo~

Here in the love of Christ I stand.

2008-02-03T12:16:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, things are just....I dunno how to say it. And i really dunno how to describe it.

One day i was browsing tru bushcrashnomore i saw a familiar name..

It was my cousin's name...

It's been ages since i last talked to her...she went to Russia to persue her dream to be a doctor...Her dream is to give life a second chance to live.

I suppose to study for my exam but i'm browsing tru her blog almost everyday..

I didn't know she was sick..

She was diagnosed with IIIrd stage acinic cell carcinoma..

Sucha shocking news for me n mummy cuz they didn't tell us bout that.

Things are just so weird that we're not close anymore eventho we're cousins, mayb cuz i faught with her sis cuz she kinda bekstabbed me infront of my other cousins?

I used to be angry..But that was long ago and i've already forgotten what had happened.

But no regrets i have done my very best to tell her that i care for her n love her...probably she dídn't receive my sms? I really don't know.

But i'm keeping her in my prayers everyday.

I hope she doesn't mind about this post & posting her link here. Cuz she is opening blogging bout it so i think it's ok.

I remember few days ago, Joe n Me was lying on the bed feeling tired after studying 4 this coming sessional..

Joe : Next time how many kids u want?

Me : I want 3! =) 2 daughters one son!

Joe : I want to educate my children properly, discipline them so that they'll become a good person...I want to have kids so that they'll save the world.(he meant our kids actually ^^)

Me :*surprised* Save the world? (in my heart i was thinking Joe is sucha great person). Why don't you n me save the world?

Joe : Cause... i'm....Too...Fat.

Me : =.=''

Speechless but yeah...Undeniably,this world is full of love.

Just like me n wendy, we faught a lot, but doesn't mean we're not good friends anymore.(she wrote it the mail)

And i really thank sze for being there, trying to solve the prob for us.

I can't stay away fr my friends, I need all 6sistahs of mine, i need my friends here & my loving parents who never fail to be there.

I saw many things lately, I feel that God is trying to convey something to me. I know there are a lot of things that i need to learn, and i can't act like a small girl anymore.
I wanna learn how to appreciate , I don't wanna take things for granted.

I haven't been to church for more than 2 months, feel as if i'm taking God for granted.

I am very bad i know, I don't pray everyday, I don't read bible & even I didn't encourage Joe & Mum to accept Christ, only once in a while.

But that doesn't mean i have forgotten God, I still love Him as much just that i'm lazy.

Once i'm in love with someone it's hard to forget=)

Just like I have a special place only for Wendy, no matter how only she can fill the void in my heart. We promised each other, to love each other more than we love our bfs=)

I'm not perfect, I have my flaws.

I'm glad that God is alwaiz here for me, showering me with love love n more love, more than i need, He heals me when i'm sick, He comforts me when i cry. I saw Jesus today morning, when i was worshipping in the church. He held my hand on a long road, I know, He is telling me not to worry bout my future, let Him take care of me.

Just like i have all of u, I have great parents, Joe & friends. That's more than enough for me. Having all of u to love me n pamper me, it's the most beautiful things in the world.

I miss my secondary skul days with sze, we caught the tadpoles in the drain lk kampung girl(hey the water is crystal clear one ok), faught with Hui a lot for some dumb reason, and now we're one step closer, she's my sistah-in-Christ. Yun are alwaiz there by myside,she sat with me in class!! Then yin & zhi, eventho i don't hang out much with u gurls, but i love u girls so much. I miss u yin, I miss u zhi. I remember u both alwaiz ponteng to come to my class.

and i also remember, Choo Mia alwaiz come to our class..and i will kena tease kao kao by him and the friends..cuz i was once with his bro, ALLAN. He sent me home after SPM, he came to glenmarie to pick me after my company dinner for Yun's bday, I used to ask him..ëh where's ur bro cuz i missed Allan.

CM is sucha great person.

Ok enuff of these emo post.

Since valentine's day falls on our exam day..(and i actually told him I don't want the Pool side Lobster Luxury dinner okay, waste money & no mood.)

and he was afraid that i won't want him anymore so b4 Valentine's day he wanna give me this gift so at least he hand it to me n won't be worrying that he won't have the chance to pass this to me.

Since V'day is on exam day is better to surprise me now..I'll be happier.

HAHAHA. Hello Kitty pen drive. SO cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! So small! I dunno how come he knows i like hello kitty!!! I like HK cúz of the color PINK.

Testing.

Eeeee i like it so much la so cute.

So since i so shiok to see my pressie. I oso gave him the pressie i bought a week ago. Sorry k India got nothing nice to buy.

But he seems to like it so i'm happy also.

and he tot i hide a ring inside the small present. =.="

Please la boy. Why should i buy u a ring?

Ok good nite. Go oink oinkz.

NICKNAMES.

2008-02-02T04:02:00.001-08:00

Sry for the lack of updates!

My sleeping time is upside down due to this coming exam.
I can't sleep eventho i'm so tired, my heart is beating faster each n every second.
Please pray for me so tat i'll pass!!

Just now i was telling this PG that he didn't mark my attendance for the last last last class.
But he is so stubborn & i was like wateva la.
We gave him nicknme - OLDMAN. Bcuz he's so old already & he's still a PG and havent even bcome a lecturer yet. and oso going to BOTAk adi sumtimes i called him BOTAK SIR.
I actually said OLD MAN loudly infront of him HMPF cuz he doesn't wanna check my attendance.

Sp gave the mam a nick too - SLEEPY EYES. cuz her eyes alwayz look like they're going to close.
then she oso gave another nick to another mam - OILY FACE cuz her face is oily? haha.

Then we hv BIG BUTT-a conso department PG & her ass is really HUGE 0.O~
Then another we called her SAGGY BOOBZ cz her boobz are so big & sagging.
Then another mam is so fair cz she's sick then they called her ALBINO. but i like this mam cuz she's so nice to me.

All these just came naturally, we don't even kno who started calling tht & we just followed.
Imagine one day someone's blur and she actually say out the nick.
Then that someone will be so dead.

My best friend.有你真好

2008-01-30T14:31:00.000-08:00

Talking bout this girl...
Haha=)
There are too much to say.

My mood can swing all of a sudden cuz of her..
Thats when i din hear fr her for some time..
Din't go shopping with her in Msia...
Or perhaps small lil thing she did that made me feel sensitive..
For example, she was sick n she din wish me on my bday on year 2006 if i'm not wrong..

She can also make my day by jz sending me a simple sms, mail or leaving msg in my chatbox..
Just simple words from her can calm my soul..
I really dunno why..
Seems like im so attached to her...

I sometimes wonder am i a bisexual or something..

And yet when u love sumone so much..
the devil will cover ur eyes..and made me an evil person whenever i'm angry..
and you never failed to forgive me...

When i'm calm..I see the beautiful things between us..
The unbreakable frienship still remains unbreakable..=)
Thanks for making my days.

I felt a lot better now.

Sry for acting lk a kid who wants attention from her big sister all the time.

有你真好!

The lyrics best describe my feelings now...

這時候最能讓我想起你　多希望你在這裡

你總是願意　把你的手心　借給我握緊

該往哪裡　我總是依賴著你　你是我的方向感

我可以確定　你會帶著我　朝對的方向前進

I'm thinking of you　我有你真好　你能讓煩惱變得渺小　

我遇見一個最懂我的人　我會提醒自己　把這份愛收好

I'm thinking of you　我有你真好　

只要牽著你的手就知道　我不是一個人在這世界停靠　

因為我擁有你（擁有你）　在我心裡

Thinking of you　有你真好

Thinking of you 因為有你　我看見世界的美麗

I'm thinking of you　我有你真好（擁有你真好）　

只要牽著你的手就知道（就知道）我不是一個人在這世界停靠　

因為我擁有你（因為有你）　在我心裡

I'm thinking of you　我有你真好　只要牽著你的手就知道（我就知道）

我早已經沒有任何缺少　因為我擁有你在我心裡 Thinking of you　

有你真好Thinking of you　有你真好

My heart aches everytime i hear something like this.

2008-01-29T23:41:00.000-08:00

I'm so imaginative n i made myself cry when i start imagining losing my love ones.
This alwaiz happens and once was when we were out with the bike to Pagasus for Bren's bday.

Years ago, we lost one of our friends & i was so overwhelmed by what had happened to him.
..which is so cruel & i won't wna mention the name here.

Eventho i'm not reli close to him but still..my heart dropped & i felt the pain.

and if u remember Chung Lern, one of our seniors in SMSU..He's quite active in chinese society if im not wrong...
His gf - Nian Ning, passed away in a bus crash.
When i was reading kennysia's blog i saw his name, n i was praying hard that it wasn't him but it was. I was emo ytd and today morning eventho i don't really know him...well, maybe i'm sensitive..

Got this from Jolene's blog. Both of them are my seniors. I decided to post this since i tot of the accident for the whole nite.

Chung Lern and Nian Ning’s families would like all families and friends of the victims, dead or alive, in the Slim River Bus Crash to come forward and join them in taking action against the bus company. Stand up to seek justice for these three innocent individuals, who were all so young and full of life.

If you have a blog, please call out to ANYONE who
knows someone who survived or did not survive
the crash to come forward to join the Lee family.
Make a huge difference, make a huge fuss.

For now, you may contact Lee Chung Lern at chunglern@gmail.com or preferably on his handphone at 012-6670368.

edit : Read this for more Info.
http://buscrashnomore.blogspot.com/

I'm worried.

2008-01-29T11:41:00.000-08:00

There is a little thing in life that i have to accept.
As the christian speaking Joel said, we can't expect the others to act like God, what more expecting them to understand us like God does?

Am feeling a little panicky now as i got only 11 days to exam.
I woke up fr sleep and i'm wide awake now...
I'm feeling so hot...
I'm feeling a little stressed...
I'm worried.

Worried bout my apartments cuz my contract stated that we can give him a month notice to shift out..
But now he is asking us to compensate the rent until July which is so BULLSHIT!
I don't care if this continues im so going to the police station.

Worried bout my second sessionals.
Suddenly i'm feeling so stressed up.

and where's my mail?
U know i'm waiting rite?
I'm worryin bout the friendship.
U don't even bother to send me?
That's ok then..I think i will never get an explanation.

2008-01-28T09:42:00.001-08:00

It was Brenda's day ytd.

And since she is going to spend her 21st bday here. SO we tried our best to fulfill her wishes.

Firstly i present u...

The 21 big big cake!!

Which cost us a BOMB. =.="

Told u we're da closest gang. No more cheh this time okay.

Ver & Me with the birthday girl.

I looked so fair=) *blueks*

Max & me.

Me & my pig who sayang me until chau da.=p

Lethargic.

2008-01-26T09:56:00.000-08:00

It's cold in here.

Woke up having flu...

Feeling a little tired..

Woke up at 6pm.

Still very tired.

I'm eating Chef Max's pasta now.

I'm quite surprised that he can make his own pasta sauce.

Not bad.

We're best friend now u know? i am very happy that he is so nice to me.

I manage to get up fr Bed after having the vitamins he gave me. He gave me more than 10 spirulinas & 3 blueberry extract. And not forgetting the chinese traditional Herbal Tea, thanks.

Went to empire mall with Joe for dinner at Chic King.

Finally they have sumthing lk KFC in here. Sigh.
I am still stuck in Mangalore. 19 weeks and i'll be home again.

Today is Miss.Brenda's bday.

Happy birthday BHRENTHA superman=p

hahaha.

I bought her a bouquet of flower.

Lovely. I chose one ok.

I forgotten the name of the flower but i chose this cuz i think roses are sooooooooo common. I mean, well i want sumthing different for her. So pretty. Just lk me. Haha im jz kidding.

Trying to hide the flower to surprise her outside her apartment.

She came out fr her room.

Was there to chit-chat with them for ard 1 hour. Poor Joe was waiting n he got scolded by me for not being able to take brenda's surprise face. So wasted!

Well, her reaction was not that big actually.

So i told her this is just the 1st pressie fr me and there are more to come tomoro!

I received this from Orkut and i think it's kinda true when women say...

Fine : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

F ive Minutes : If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour.

Nothing : This is the calm before the storm. This means something,and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

Go Ahead : This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

So yeah. Be careful guys.

She is fragile.

2008-01-24T08:40:00.000-08:00

The cry baby jz finished crying.
She wants to go home on her 21st bday.
But her mummy said It's quite dangerous for her to go home alone.
From Mangalore & Bangalore n she has to be alone in the airport at nite...

So she suggested that her mummy&daddy to come here..
But her daddy has very busy schedule and he is very busy with his new industry...
and her mummy is afraid to come alone...
And she wants a gucci bag for her birthday..
But she doesn't wanna buy cuz no point using in India..

She is very pitiful.
Eyes are swollen.
Luckily Joe is here to lend her a shoulder.
If not she won't know what to do.
Sobs.
She is better now.

Strawberrie.

2008-01-23T09:07:00.000-08:00

Oiyoh..this is how i look like in the morning......Ma sleepy face.=p

Me with Brenda & veron.

Yay! Joe bought me Si toh beh lei.(strawbie in cantonese) =p
Staw-beh-ley from New Delhi.

Fr Left..Very, Berry, Strawberry.

My pacifier. Its too big can't even fit in my mouth!

THank God they're not sour at all. I hate the sour ones.

I walked around my college to look for apartment today! So tired!! Ish i prefer my apartment still and i think i'm gonna shift to another unit. Dun wanna go so far since every1 is here. I mean most of the Malaysians. My shit owner is bugging our lives again...As i expected he is going to increase Rs.1000 for our rent. And threaten me to shift. Since u think so good bout ur stupid apartment LET ME TELL U...Ok. I SHIFT!

U know when we went back for vacation he actually came into our house cuz he has extra key!

How can u do that hellO? 0.o

I've never seen sucha si beh kiam siap & calculative guy b4.

Its ok i have soooooooooooo many choices here. Hmpf.

If I would walk 500 miles.

2008-01-21T12:37:00.000-08:00

Oh my gosh.
My blog traffic is increasing tremendously.

Anywayz, I jz finished or i shud say partially finish carving my Maxillary 1st Premolars & i seriously got no idea how to do it and i have my viva tom.

Again i skipped class this morning. I slept til 1p.m.
I seriously dun wanna be like that but i jz can't wake up in the morning.
My heart beat was so heavy & slow.. I felt reli tired.
Maybe due to my low blood pressure. I alwaiz have this when i got no enuff sleep.

I'm so dead i got attendance shortage. U know the feeling when u're worried of ur attendance but u jz can't go to class cz u cudn't wake up but u oso can't sleep properly. X.0 Get it? lolx.

I love this. Bought it yesterday.

We can't spell s ccess without U. Looks lk a normal clock rite?

Haha photos~!

Beloved Bren bren!

Jing Ju's heartie is bigger than Ken Joe. ;p

OK i gtg oink oinkz. I mean i'll finish studying 1st. Nite nite.

Ki Li Ka Lang

2008-01-20T09:24:00.000-08:00

"=.= I forgot to off my iron yesterday nite.

Middle of the nite i heard the dog whining...
Then came with this SHhhh SHhh SHHHhh noise by someone else...

I sent puvan a msg right after that...
"did u shhh the dog just now?"
and YAH it was him........HAHAHAHA.
So loud i can even hear it from my room.

Am having bad gastric rite now.
Choo pain =/
Went shopping today..
Bought kitchen utensils and some ki li ka lang thingie fr gift shop..
Anywayz i will stop ere..Nothing much to blog about.

I miss my mummy!

It's ur right to be wrong.

2008-01-19T10:55:00.000-08:00

Today...I've learned that i must preserve the natural tooth structure as much as possible.
My cavity is getting wider n wider lately..cuz i alwaiz try to polish the wall of the cavity thats why..
But at least i've learned my mistakes on a fake tooth=p Not a real one..

and today during the carving demonstration of Maxillary 1st Premolars..(Gosh the dentist extracted my 1st premolars for orthodontic treatment last time..I regretted for not keeping it!!!)

My oral histo lecturer said...
"It's ur right to be wrong."

Sp n me quite gilakan him and today my bf caught me checking him out.
Kantoi =.="
We admire him only ok=>

I jz fin watching one episode of Wars of In Laws II with Joe.
And he has gone for his BIKE RIDING session now n as usual I'm busy online & surfing the net!

2008-01-18T09:08:00.000-08:00

Old ginger is alwaiz spicy! hahaha. I translated it from chinese idiom.(Jiang shi lao de lak)

Or i shud say having an Old family member is a treasure.(Jia you yi lao,ru you yi bao)

Cuz i remember my grandma once taught me how to prevent the color of my clothes from fading.

How?

By soaking it overnite with Vinegar + Salt.

It works~!=)

U know lah..punjabi suits in India..wut can u expect?

I hate it cuz i can't wash them with my other clothes.

Anywayz, I skipped my backlog conso class today. I can't wake up after having my afternoon nap. SIGHs.

I slept from 12.30p.m to 5.10p.m. I can't believe i'm still feeling tired.

Cuz i went to baby Poo's house yesterday. Overnite there=p
Slept with Poo and i actually hugged her while sleeping...........I don't even know bout this.

Cuz of this she woke up in the middle of the nite and looked at me..She gt no idea why am i hugging her and she said Uh watever la.

Afraid of da lecturer of my Oral Histo Viva tomoro..So i went to the library.

Gosh it's library time again. Look at da reluctant face of mine.

I don't want to but i have to.

Then suddenly i don't feel well. Maybe cause of the Nutrifresh i took b4 i came to library. Felt lk my stomach was bloating.

Then what? Went out for dinner with Joe & housemate. =) n i totally forgot bout his bike...canot fit 3 person! so we took auto there.

And now im back and i HAVE TO finish my record book rite now.

SO yeah. Ja neh!

Just like that.

2008-01-16T09:12:00.000-08:00

HOLLA!

I got it fr my mama. ;>

Ok.I'm bad. Yesterday i skipped 2 lecture classes & 1 practical class(which only lasted for 5mins,so wasted rite?). I just could't get up fr the bed.I've tried my best.

And today i took a nap but i got up ard 10pm.

I got As for both my Mandibular Canine carving.First time of my whole entire life man. Haha. Am so EpPie okie=)

Then yesterday ard 7 all of us went to this FUN FAIR thingie. It's like the old old type of M'sia fun fair kinda thing where we used to go when we were young. Me n my bro love it. They alwaiz have it beside our old apartment.

Accessories store. Made in China again.

Ghost house. I screamed sooooooo much. I dunno why. I made every1 panic from the start. HAHA.

Then went to Sizzler Ranch for dinner.

SO PACKED!

Oh ya we went there by bike with Puvan & Gayathri. I was praying praying n praying so hard. SO scary the traffic ere.=/

Sizzler Pepper Chicken with Onion & Mushroom.

Ranch Chicken Special.

Thats all for now.

Gtg study! Jia you.

All the best for those taking exams on Friday.(Caryn, Evelyn, Ravin,Rahul....) Mwahsss.

I love dentistry!

2008-01-14T11:00:00.000-08:00

Thank God da mam didn't scold us today. PhewWie.
Now see i am a good girl today i used the mouth mirror for the cavity preparation.

Today we had to prepare a class I cavity on the upper wisdom tooth. Frankly, it's quite hard to see the tooth and Max's can't even control his bur lols. His bur was running here n there...
I destroyed the tooth but i feel a bit rajin today so i actually filled my cavity with Acrylic to redo it.The HOD doesn't mind signing da wrong cavity for me since it's already soooooooo wide but i wanna learn. But i regretted cz the acrylic took so mucha time to dry up. ISh.

And as u know i alwaiz break the rules. Look at my right hand. *hint hint*
The PGs alwaiz come to me asking where's my mouth mask, gloves.

Alex used to ask me to take a pic of me wearing super tite & short lab coat with mini skirt inside. HAHAHA. But sorry dude i disappoint u cuz tak sexy langsung. Nxt time k cz skirts are not allowed in the college.

Another thing i told Joe & Max that i wanna wear milky pink labcoat in my clinic nxt time but they laughed at me. Very funny meh? I used to think i wanna wear nurse uniform okay. I likey=p BTW, I know wut the guys are thinking so...forget bout it.

I drill i drill I DRILL DRILL DRILL!

This is deciduous teeth. A.k.a Milk teeth/baby teeth.

Gonna practise cavity preparation for Pedodontics. and the teeth are a lot smaller. Weeee.

I'm afraid to handle kids tho. T'hey'll bite ur hand ok. My friend's father is a dentist and he got bitten by a malay kid and his hand got PUS for 2 weeks. SCAREY!

This set of model cost us rs.1800. @#$%^*

Haha. Oklah it's still affordable.

Have a nice day everyone!

Happy Birthday My Bao Bei Dee.

2008-01-12T08:53:00.000-08:00

"My best friend is the one who brings out the best in me."

Happy 21st bday to Dearest Wendy.
Nothing is more valueble than our friendship.

Dun wanna be all by myself in this world..

Without u my life is in complete darkness...*mwahs*

you are so dear to me n i can't bear to lose u.

Love ya.

Cud i have this kiss forever?

2008-01-12T05:11:00.000-08:00

I'm not gonna blog much so yeah...
Let pictures do the talking!

Genting trip. Happiest day of my hols.

cuz i won a lot of prizes. I jz lurveee fun fair so muchie.

I wanted this and Joe won it for me. Choo cute.

We spent so much for this..but i was damn happy. Hahaha.
The satisfaction when u got what u wanted.
Sry i forgot to take a pic of the prizes.

I'll look this fat after me pregnant. LOLx.

Joe & me at Starbucks. I like the Starbucks tumbler which u can insert ur own photos in it. Hello=p my 21st bday is coming soon. *hint hint*

Yes i smoke. Joe is a bad influence.

KIDDING!

Wendy's Pool side bday party, Sunway Club.

Attire strictly WHITE n PINK only.

Look at the bikini Baby.She has NO TUMMY and so SKINNY okay. *hmph*

Yun & Me.

My best friend a.k.a Big sistah.

And i miss watching tv with my Daddy.

After watching Golden Compass @ Garden's.

After National Treasure 2 @ Cineleisure, The curve.

'Fai lok dik si kan yong yi guo, yao hai si kan gong bye bye.' (cantonese)

With my family @ KLIA.

So yeah. Again..It's time to say goodbye.

Look at our pants. Hehe. Can't imagne my life without him in India.

I need to study cz i flung a lot of subjects so PLEASE remind me to study if u see me online.

Today my lecturer called me out to ask bout my results...He asked if im facing any probs etc etc etc...Haha. N i saw my marks okay. I passed my pracs in Oral histo but i got 15/60 in my theory paper..

So low rite?

Which means i have to score at least 45 to compensate this.
God help me.

Padan muka. dai sei. It's all my fault. I was too lazy......!

And.....

Today i had to do some class I cavity preparation for the 26(which means the First Molar in upper jaw)...

Guess what? it was soooooo difficult and i only can view the tooth fr my mouth mirror(cuz i can't bend my head down DUH). n I was confused with the image in the mirror....

SO i was doing that for ard 1 n half hour...

And due to my mouth mask i felt reli dizzy n frustrated..but no doubt i like the work...

Su Phing came to sit bside me cuz the korean girl sitting bside me was absent.

I talked to her a lot...

And suddenly we came out with this idea that we can take out the upper jaw and prepare it on the table.....HAHAHA.

She started it but i was scared to do so cuz i'm sitting at the corner..which means lecturers alwaiz passby my place...

But at last i did it cz she told me it is SO EASY to do it like that.

And i nicely took out the jaw...............

Within 5mins someone snatched it away. I was shocked. I stared at the old man PG and kept quiet.

Sp was so smart she rampas it fr him =.="

I just hope he wont report to my lecturer if not i'll get into deep shit.

I'm back in INDIA again.

2008-01-08T09:27:00.000-08:00

eh...........eh!! eh!! HELLO!
Hahaha.
I''m back to this neh neh place.

U know i was so sad to leave but...
It was weird.
When u thought u are ok b4 leaving..U will be crying like hell when u hug ur parents b4 u leave.
But this time i was super sad to leave but i didn't cry.
Yeah. 1st time of my life i didn't cry when i was separated fr papa & mama.
I've become a stronger girl in year 2008.
I wanna be more independent.
So listen everyone..stop pampering me.

Gosh. I'm back to this place.
Thank God no fungie this time. Thanks to my tons of thirsty hippo & the slight increase in temperature ere. I'm sure by march the weather will be very very very hot. Fuh. I duno how to survive with it.
and Thank God Joe is with me too.

Will upload the pics soon.

-been talking to a lot of people about it, i really dunno what to do. who is willing to let go so many years of friendship? Not me. definately...what bout..hm..you?-

My memories in the past.

2008-01-05T11:55:00.000-08:00

It's 4 sumthing in the morning.
I'm still awake. Busy packing my stuff and trying to tidy up my wardrobe.
I remember so clearly that i wanted this closet of mine so badly cuz it has the compartment lk the main actress has in "Princess Diary"
But what happened after dad bought it for me?
FUH. SO MESSY.
and i think im going to give away half the amt of my clothes away. very CHOR DENG.

Everytime i open the small compartments in it when i'm back in m'sia...
I saw......Memories.
A lot of sweet sour bitter memories of my past.
My diaries.
Letters from sistahs & my ex-es.
Lotsa pressies.

Yin & Sze once told me b4, that they will chuck all the things related to their ex-es away after the break ups.
Cuz...They feel disgusted keeping it? They don't wanna see anything related to the guys that will remind them of the past?
U know...U know? after hearing that i tot of giving/chucking/burning/tearing them..But all of them are so precious to me and honestly i wouldn't wanna do it.
But this doesn't mean that i will dwell in the past and will never move on.
Instead, I cherish every happy moments i had with them. I feel sorry for hurting them a lot at the end of the r/ships. But sumtimes thinking of it, hugging the soft toys they gave me makes me smile. They are jz too precious to be taken away fr me. No matter how bad a person hurt me in da past...I thank u for making me who i am today..And i thank u for loving this pampered playful clumsy ferocious unreasonable mischievously me.

And it's like a miracle that we're still friends now. They still care about me(mayb not as much as last time) & love me (not as a gf la of cuz).
I feel loved wheneva i'm with them.
Sometimes i'm silly enough to doubt my own feelings whether i'm still in love or sumthing..
But the past is the past. Everything is over. ( i only love one person - JOE)
Do you know..do you know..?
you..you are still here when i fall sick.
and you..you are alwaiz there when i'm feeling down..
you you we planned to burn the diary together..
you're still willing to be my driver to send me around..since i can't drive=p
you still buy me dinner & tapao my fav food for me...

WHY?
Is it cuz guys are alwaiz so generous? Thats why they don't count with u/revenge?
At least the one i found was generous enough to lend me their hands whenever i need someone.
And i thank God for sending them into my life..
So yeah. *Sobs*
Thank you.
you know who u are.

I'm leaving. U know?

2008-01-05T09:13:00.000-08:00

As all of u know...
I am leaving....
Today.
All the messed up feelings inside me are bothering me...
I don't even know how to handle them...
I don't know what should i do..to calm myself down..
I don't know how to make myself feel better...
Sigh.

I hate this feeling.
I happily came back, then i was bored at home and i almost fall into depression...b4 i cud realize wut was going on it's time for me to leave again. This will definately be a torture. I know.

My heart aches everytime i hug my parents b4 i leave.
and again i have to accept the fact that...I am out of this comfort zone.
No one will ever protects me lk my parents do when i'm away.

I am not ready or i should say i don't want to leave.
But still...I have to.
Guess this is just part of life..
Goodbye everyone.

Happy New Year.

2008-01-01T08:53:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Shinen Omedeto Gozaimasu!

Firework @ The Curve

Blur sze is blur now. Lame lolx.

Man i love this pic!!

I love the snowie effect. Ben sprayed at me when i was cam-whoring.

My memory.=> Thx for being part of my past.

Us girls and Andy's hand with the bottle.

The curve was so crowded but Thank God the fireworks was nice. Chooo nice. But i had bad bad bad gastric cuz waited too long outside KIM GARY & the borsch soup was too sour i guess.

Today went to Ikea and one sofa shop.Bought a sofa set n some other stuff for dad's new office! Had bad headache today for not having enuff sleep.
So yeah NITEs NITEs.

And Joe is here in KL. Gonna meet up with him tomoro.

Barcelona.

2007-12-31T01:16:00.000-08:00

Hello Barcelona!!

It's Bar Celona. lol.

We came here cuz they said Eugene Mak is leaving tomoro....But...He wasn't there. The guys can actually enjoy themselves n Shiok sendiri here.
But i came cuz i wanna celebrate birthday with sze. Thank God she came haha SZE i can persuade uUu.

Being the Big mouth me i reported to the guys around me that today is SZE's bday. then Yee Kuan went to the DJ straight and i din know he bought this cake fr da club also.....

He told me to inform sze this is her Xmas & Bday pressie. SO SWEET kan? and He also told me that this is the Most Expensive Birthday Cake he ever bought for someone.

Ju DY Sze iS Back again HAHA!

Actually Sunday supposed to be my family day.

So ya I went 1 u with parents in the afternoon......

And....... I brought them to SHOGUN haha..

So excited to see so many foodie but Pls dun ask me to go to that place again..

I'm bored of the food there. Ueks.

And i saw one man, he secretly placed all the handrolls that his mum and his wife took into his bag. OH gosh. His small lil son was there with him..Bad influence.

Anywayz guys im leaving on the 6th!

Will be going to the curve tonite OKIE=) C ya!

Happy birthday Darling Sze

2007-12-29T10:27:00.000-08:00

First and foremost....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING SZE!

Im posting this pic cuz...Learn from u all one lah.
Normally birthday girls/boys will be featured in da blog. Lols.

I'm feeling better after watching movies yesterday and today.

National tresure 2 & Golden Compass.
I like GC cz of the animals in there but not the stupid ending that made me...SWEAT! =.="
Za dou..u know ZA DOU!

Anywayz..i duno what's wrong with me...

I'm alwaiz emo..depressed..
I think i'm falling into depression...
For while i'm ok..for while i'm abnormal..
Maybe i'm so used to my busy life there..
I'm lost here cuz i've got nothing to do..
Brought my books back but I'm JUST TOO LAZY!
Or i shud say i have no mood to study..
Maybe cuz i stay at home too much...
Maybe i really need to be out a lot..Like MOST OF THE TIME!
I'm not into shopping..I'm not interested in spending money tho...
Mum n dad gave me alot and i actually returned some to my dad...
U know what is wrong with me? I used to shop like mad rite?

我不想又再偷偷在哭泣

Thought.

2007-12-29T04:17:00.000-08:00

Sigh.
Im sorry to start my post with a SIGH but u know...
Whateva movies, series i watched can influence my mood a lot..
I still remember My sassy girl actually made me cried so much...da whole nite!
And this "Building blocks of life" has done the same thing to me...
Click here to watch the last part..If u're interested lah=)
Watch the part where the girl doesn't remember him anymore ok?
And im so in love with this Alex fong..eventho he's old..=p But he's very MAN.

你累了沒有　可否伸出雙手
想擁抱　怎能握著拳頭
我們還有很多夢沒做
還有很多明天要走
要讓世界聽見我們的歌

準備好沒有　時間不再回頭
想要飛　不必任何理由
不管世界盡頭多寂寞
你的身邊一定有我
我們說過不管天高地厚

想飛到　那最高最遠最灑脫
想擁抱　在最美麗的那一刻
想看見　陪我到最後誰是朋友
你是我最期待的那一個
可以一起闖禍　一起沈默　一起走
可以一起飛翔　一起淪落
不管天高地厚陪著我陪我一起大聲狂吼

想飆到　那最高最遠最遼闊
想唱完　那最感動的一首歌
沒看見　那天高地厚不肯放手
因為我有我想要的朋友
你是我最想要的朋友

2007-12-28T02:33:00.000-08:00

If I had my life to live over, I'd dare to make more mistakes next time. I'd relax; I'd limber up. I would be sillier than I have been this trip. I would take fewer things seriously. I would take more chances. I would perhaps have more actual troubles, but I'd have fewer imaginary ones.

Merry X'mas & Happy Birthday Yinz.

2007-12-24T02:16:00.000-08:00

I've lost my ability to blog!

Sry for lack of blogging ok. Im jz too lazy.

And im very very into this series - "Building Blocks of life". Im watching it almost everynite n i hate it when i have to wait for the nxt new episode!!

The story is like my past=> u know when u tried to stay away fr someone but u jz couldn't.

and i jz don't understand certain people..they have to twist the story and made it sounded lk it's completely...YOUR FAULT. and try to fool u by doing sumthing reli stupid and they tot they've won. Anywayz..i was jz being nice n i know..God's watching us.

Came back from Sg on Sat. (;

Shop shop shop a lot...and I went to eat my fav Singapore BAKUTEH lah. Thanks to my uncle. He's sooo sweet to bring me there when i told him bout this particular shop. Every1's pampering me like hell...Alot of celebs love this shop too!

Founder Bak Kut Teh @ Balestier road.

We had to wait outside..Ish.

My small cousie. He's so cute & manja!

Sunday.(23rd)
Went for family dinner with my cousies & aunties & uncles & my grandma at Mandirin Oriental.

Justine Me & Jacinda. We used to look alike.

I only see them once a year cz they're alwaiz migrating ere n there...from US to Hk to Shenzhen to Shanghai...and im sure the list will go on n on...
Me, Jacin, Yuin Thing & Justine.

All of us.

The freaking parking fee cost us rm26. Cz my dad was too lazy to go n get the chop fr the hotel. Hahaha=p

Went for Ktv on X'mas eve.
We were excited and we actually jumped on the sofa and danced madly.

Look at yinz.lols.

Da waitor there actually saw us and asked us to Stop doing THAT.=p I was smart enuff to sit down straight when he came in and da others actually stood there n stared at him haha.

After chiong K.

Then both my cousies, Jacinda and Justine came over to see my dog.
They came in my room, Jacinda was busy disturbing every1 in my msn....

And justine......................

Gosh. She's in love with my MAC eyeliner cz she said it's "shiny" -.-

Look at the yellow tie. It's my hair band. Kids nowadays are so imaginative.

Then, went to my Tan Beng Li's house for the X'mas party. Sounds familiar? She was a teacher in SU la=) and she's my aunty.
She's a christian and both her daughters are christians too. But her hubby was asking me not to believe in Jesus & bla bla bla. i don't understand. People jz like to question me bout Christianity.

After that, went to Glenmarie for another Xmas party.

Playing Pyramid.

Me & Alex.

The ladies.

And here i am to wish my beloved darling Jesus a very Happy Bday. Hehehe.
And merry X'mas every1...

Thanks Jerry for the X'mas pressie. Da doggie chooo cute.

And HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING SISTAH YIN YINz....=)
I love you so muchie. SO SO MUCHIE!
MWAHS.
I'll alwaiz love u baybeh.

Im in SG.

2007-12-19T04:52:00.000-08:00

Hello!~ *blueks*
Am currently in Singapore rite now=>
Will be back on Saturday ok.
C yaaaa.

Bali trip. I lurve dolphins!

2007-12-16T06:41:00.000-08:00

Aku digigiTTt DolPin-Nyah ni. *trying to speak like an indonesian.

Talk about Dolphin..That's the most exciting part of my BALi trip. I jz lurrveeee dolphins soooo muchie even i was bitten by one of them. i jz can't wait to blog bout these dolphins...yeah but let me talk bout my day 1 in Bali first..

In front of mama & papa's hotel room..

I hate this Big big key & this balinese style hotel.

Then...

We went shopping for the WHOLE day=)

1st day of cuz shop shop shop & shop lah. Haha.

and also cuz we can't stand the hot weather there so we went to Discovery Mall that Sze intro to me.

Outside the Mall.

Then dinner at the seaside...

Watching Sunset..

My fav drink - Green Sand.
*taste like Sprite + Beer.

After dinner...Of cz shopping again.

At Kuta.

Then we went for Massage. Thats all for day 1.

Day 2..
We were all so excited to see the dolphins. U know from what we heard there will be thousands of dolphins at Singaraja.

So we went there by cab & took us 2 and a half hours to reach there.
Guess what we saw?

Nothing. Only the calm deep blue sea.

Was bored & started camwhoring with my bro on the boat.

Mayb cuz we reached there quite late, those whites who came earlier saw a lot a lot a lot of dolphins.

Was quite dissapointed. Sigh. Then i heard they have this new hotel. U can actually pay to swim with the dolphins.

Unfortunately the camera died off so i have only a few precious pics taken by dad's phone camera.

Me hugging Jack.

This Dolphie was very very aggressive. The trainer was giving me some instructions.

So yah. This dolphin - Jack kept coming to me & it's super manja. Haha i lurrrveee him.

He swam across my legs & kept rubbing my body i had no idea why but it was quite painful when he knocked on me. And erhem his "down there" is quite strong cz he used it to drag my leg. lols.

The another small dolphin-John was there too but he never come near us. According to the trainer, he was jealous.

Jack & John.

I had to leave and when i was coming up fr the pool, Jack bit me!!!! and he nicely smiled at me!!!*previously the trainer told me that when a dolphin smiles it will open it's mouth & u can see the teeth.

It was so painful and i was quite shocked. After a while the trainer said sry to me & told me that Jack wants to play with me and doesn't want me to leave him. But ahhhHh maybe he lied to me who knows. Choooo pain. Sobs.

I saw Jack's teeth ok. Most of them have same shape as human's molar. Thats why so painful!

Then, we went for shopping again. Look at the amount of shoes my mum bought for her friends. Only a few are mine.

My bro bought 2 dozen of Krispy Kreme donuts.

He also bought a lot of erhem according to him he called it "Lampa" keychains for his friends. *faints*

Then went for body massage. Ahhh pamper pamper!

Day 3..

Went shopping again. Then off to airport.

Lunch at Fukutaro in the airport.

I love my skin color~! But i have sun burn. Ouch.

Reached home and i missed bren bren so muchie. So i went to the pet shop to pick her up.

Acting cute. Lack of attention lols. 3 days no one sayang this Manja Pot.

LASTLY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MINZHI!!!!!!! Sorry babe i din get to wish u!! I love u i love u! MWahs!

ScreaM scream!

2007-12-13T08:45:00.000-08:00

Gosh. I found this pic.
My goodness that's so funny.
Lets scream babes.

Our Stila make up class.

~Am flying to BALI! In 5 hours time!!!~

I hate the fact that i love you.

2007-12-12T05:42:00.000-08:00

I hate the fact that i love you.

No one can see that I'm drowning in sorrow

Tears I choke back

And words I swallow

I'm bleeding on the inside

And crying on the out

Can't you at least try

To understand what I'm about?

To understand how I feel?

To understand why I cry?

To understand why I wanna give up?

That's never gonna happen

Because nothing gets to you

You'll never try to care.

True..no one understands how i feel right now...only Him and him-Joe.

and at least...poornima experienced da same thg as me..and she truly und how i feel.

At least now i kno that i'm not abnormal and i dun need to see any phsycologist.

I shall hand this to God and stop worrying bout this.

And i hate the fact that i can never let go this person.

HmpF! I love you.

My gathering pics!

Siew Tien(my primary bestie) & me

Woah. So many of them. (from Top left: Wen how, Thiam Seng, Eng Yee, Kiat Kuan, Wei Jie, Wang Khiam, Wei Ye, Yen Peng, Me, Wei Yang, Yii Yii, Yuen Mun, Xun Xiu, Yik Yee, Siew Tien, Li Pin & Chin Zik) Sry if i spell ur english name wrongly.=p And see i can remember all of them! Good memory u see u see.

My day.

2007-12-12T02:16:00.000-08:00

Went for facial and i jz came back.

Feeling so sleepy eventho i slept for around 12 hours.

Nothing much to do today and it's already 6.30pm now.

Wanted to ask Yin n Sze to go jogging but im very tired.

Rmb to watch "Xin Fu Wei Yuan Hui/ Fen shou lei tai" on astro channel 316 at 7.30p.m.

Quite nice. and at nite i'll watch my fav tvb series which i've mentioned in my prev post.

I went out with Joe yesterday=)

Met him at Mid Valley.

So happy to see him again but he nicely ruin my day by showing me his JUSTICE BAO's face.

*Piaks*

Wutever la.

U better sayang me back x10000000 times.

Then i went to Wangsa Maju to meet my primary skul classmates.

OMG! every1 changed so much and i can't recognise sum of them

I shifted to Subang after my primary 6 and din reli get to see them anymore!

Can u believe the laziest guy in our class(dat bugs bunny shirt guy)..those teachers used to whack him a lot..and now he's studying MEDICINE in IMU. hahaha. Every1 says its unbelievable. But nothing is impossible rite..hehe CONGRATS!

and the smartest guy is currently studying in NUS! Gosh.

They said i'm so soft spoken rite now..

I don't think so la cz i still think im loud.

Hey i used to be 1 of the noisiest in da class..and oh i used to bully the guys a lot...
Im sorry ^^" pls forgive me.

Im so happy to see SIEW TING! my primary skul best friend.

I rmb i used to ask her to go to the washroom with me by using sign & body language!!

And sze's cousin was my classmate oso..HAHA szeeee=) i saw ur cousie~

Now look at this notty girl..

She was whining so loud when my mum noticed her. She wanted to jump into the house but i guess she was afraid to do so. lols.

Gtg. Tah tah.

Ipoh.

2007-12-10T09:35:00.000-08:00

Lord father God,

Forgive me for the things that i've done when i was angry, forgive me that i'm not able to control myself when i was angry.

I pray that this will be over soon.

and guess what i did today?

Lols.

I went to Ipoh for dinner. Wanted to eat Ipoh chicken rice but sigh. I stopped by pyramid to send my laptop and watch for repair so we reached there quite late.

Ended up eating Ginger Duck. Slurps. Not bad.

Then tried their white coffee at Old Town White Coffee. sweat. Their another outlet is jz 5 mins away fr my house.

Andrew, Jerry, Me, Evelyn, Eve's bro

What u girls want me to do? I can't take it anymore. It's not bout the past that is haunting me. It happens all the time!!!!! So? wut u expect me to do/feel? pretend? tahan? I am going to burst. Seriously, i can take it anymore.
This is the way i talk. Esp when i'm mad at u, take it or leave it.
If its not because that i wanted u to und me so badly cz even i've tried so hard to explain but u dun seem to consider it...I wont bother to blog it out!
and i know u wont und. Go ahead, do it, and ruin the friendship.
i don't wanna care anymore. It's been years that i can't feel that we reli heart to heart link to each other anymore.

Thanks Hui.

2007-12-09T12:02:00.001-08:00

Hui,
It's 4.02 a.m now. I wanted to blog but duno why i read ur blog 1st b4 i write anything. And thank u babe. I saw ur post. U named it using my name. It touched my heart and i almost tear. Thanks for encouraging me..i really wanna thank those who encourage me in my Christian life. Thanks hui for guiding me.
Well, I did the same mistakes like u do. Every single thing u mentioned there babe=>
Lets pray that God will forgive us.
I thank God for sending u into my life babe. Eventho we alwaiz quarrel over small thg but im glad we've grown up n we learned how to treasure each other.

* * *
edit : i care bout our friendship. i admit i was wrong for doing this bt least i admit it. And u don't. Cheers.

Joe=>

2007-12-08T09:29:00.000-08:00

yay~
Joe came to my hse=>
Then we went to Shogun, 1 utama.
Damn cheap.Its oni Rm60 per person n u can eat eat eat n eat all u want.*so worth it*

Then went shopping.

Had family dinner with my aunty fr Singapore and tomoro we're going for bakuteh at 8am.
*faints*
Gonna be so so hard for me to wake up man.
Good nite.

I canceled all my P L A N S

2007-12-07T08:14:00.000-08:00

All my plans were canceled today!!!

Firstly, I supposed to go for facial in the morning but i was too sleepy to get up so i told my mum to cancel the appointment for me.

Then, we canceled our Jogoya buffet plan in the afternoon.

Then, Jerry nicely went to malacca with the group of people we supposed to party with and all of them stuck in the jam so our drinking party is CANCELED. Potong stim la. Next time i don wanna go adi.

Den Joe supposed to visit me since he's in KL but he is sick. =( So yeah.

Wut did i do today?
Nothing much. Followed my mum to somewhere then came back. Planned to sleep but again....Someone did sumthing that really broke our hearts. Its ok i told myself, he's still learning.

Basically the most meaningful thing i did today was I went massage with mum n dad.=> and read a page of Pharma text book.

Hee.

I wasted my damn whole day!

and i'm sooooooooo in love with this new tvb drama~

Hair hair hair.

2007-12-06T08:42:00.000-08:00

Due to my Xtra care, and cz i'm a super loving owner...Bren bren has recovered. I duno why bt she's jumping up and down lk a small lil kid eventho she's kinda old already=)

I did sumthing to my hair today=>

Thanks dy for da company. Mwahs.

I dyed my hair + straighten + cut + hair extension. Muahaha.

and another 2 strands of extension are FREE. ^^v

OK ENOUGH.

Ok bye.

2007-12-05T08:08:00.000-08:00

FongFeiKei-pro = Yihui , Yinz, Zhi.

Yun is forgivable cz she's having her finals.

And again...Ju Dy Sze went out all by themselves, so pitiful without the other sistahs.

hmpF!

We went to Sakae Sushi for dinner. I dunno why cz i told them i wanted BBQ plaza as my bro told me that place nt bad. So sua ku nv been to phase2 b4. Cz im alwaiz stuck in INDIA! ish. Anywayz...PICTURES!

Baby Sze & Me.

Wendy.

Jack Daniel's chocolate fr UK.Thanks Dy!

I love the ribbons.

HEppie eppy=)

Dy.Sze

I almost fall on sze.

huggy sze.

My mimok baby is sick. Im so worried. Doc said she's not healthy havin some infections. Currently sleeping with me so i can take care of her.

Hope she'll be fine.

I'm BACK!

2007-12-04T07:12:00.000-08:00

Surprise!!!!!!!

haha. i'm back.

and im not using my old number anymore.

but i don't even know wut's my number now.

Ask me okie.

I've eaten my fav Korean BBQ beef, pan mee, CHAR SIEW rice & also my mummy's cooking.

Notty gurl.

2007-12-01T03:23:00.000-08:00

Haha the title is Sze's nickname.
Had conservative dentistry again today.
Again i didn't pin up my hair.
I tot the mam was going to tell me that next time my patients will eat my hair but...
She told me that..Pin up ur hair unless u 1 2 soak ur hair in saliva for hair wash...
Pfft.

I think i am da most disobedient student who alwaiz break the rules.
Well,u can see me in da class and the nxt second i'll disappear. =D
Only in Prosthodontic pracs cz i'm so bored of doing the same thing over n over again..
Teeth arangement...base plate...articulating...break the Plaster of paris...remake another baseplate..occlusal rims....arranging teeth.....this process goes on & on & on..
One day Puvan came to me and he said :"Jing Ju, I like the way u disappear in class. lols"

I'll normally run to the dental clinic in my college to check my teeth..(X-ray, scaling...etc)
To different department to check my teeth and gums to make sure my oral cavity is healthy.
Cz i hav deep grooves which are prone to caries.
Sometimes i run out fr the class cz i was not feeling well.
TO where?
THE HOSPITAL.

U know what?
I have a surprise for all of u in Msia=)
Wait patiently BaybehHsS.
Tell me u gurls miss me my sistahs.
Wahahaha.

Cavity preparation.

2007-11-27T13:35:00.000-08:00

Yes yes my blog is so dead. I know i know.=)
I am busy enjoying my day which i know i dun deserve this cz i din work hard for my sessionals.
Ok my results are just bad.
So don't ask me bout it.

And yes people..i am coming bek in early dec. (sorry i can't tell u da date, u'll kno the reason soon.)
*blueks*

I learned bout cavity preparation.
I love it. So FUN!
it's hard to control in da beginning but u'll find it easy to handle after some time.
Pity Joe that he's a lefty so it's bit hard for him. He has to start preparing it fr the opposite side.
And my mam oso told me that i have to pin up my hair..if not my patient will end up eating my HAIR! -.-"

Maxillofacial

2007-11-21T22:33:00.000-08:00

I'm so hungry. My cook didn't come today. So no food to eat.
Joe is cooking Indo Mee Tom Yam rite now.
I miss the Thai spicy tom yam soup man. Slurpss.

One of my classmates got into serious accident.
i heard our dean did plastic surgery for him. And now he is back to class.
So jz now when i was doing my Prosthodontic prac i started day dreaming..
and started telling myself how awesome maxillofacial surgery is..
cz they cut da flesh of his thigh to replace the skin on his forehead.(da whole skin on his forehead was torn)..
I reli reli pity him..i was curious bt i jz dare not look at him afraid that he would feel inferior or sumthing...So i stared at him fr the corner...observing him...

Suddenly....Da mam called my name..
"Jing Ju!!!"
"Huh....? mam?"
"No work?"
Shit. Then i showed her my articulator...and pretending lk im adjusting it..

Anywayz..i still prefer Orthodontics than Maxillofacial..cz i don't have the courage to be a real surgeon. I don't wanna be a normal dentist i wanna be an Orthodontist..to give my patients that confident smile!=) Haha. long long more to go..We'll see.

Am so in love with Lime soda lately!
wanna cook bakuteh & seafood tomyam!

I Miss Home!

Happy belated birthday Jian Wei

2007-11-20T09:24:00.000-08:00

Happy belated birthday Hammie Wei=>

*xoxo*

Listen..........
I passed my conso!!!!!!!
Nyahahahaha.

Through the RainNe.

2007-11-19T03:23:00.000-08:00

I passed my PATHO paper!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! WoHooo~!

God is go great!

Ahh.

I misunderstood my mum.

And yesterday she kinda explained to me and we both got one step closer.I believe in future we'll be closer n closer. Cz i tell my mum everything.We're lk friends u know..we're lk sisters.

Sobs.

I miss ma mum.

She's da greatest mum in da world.

and again i believe that everything happens for a reason.

Things happened n i knew da reason now.

God was there to comfort me. He sees every tears i cried. and today He kinda hinted me bout my results..and told me not to worry...

and see....

I PASSED! lols. *shioks*

Presenting...

Mr.Joe and Mr.Max...

'ssssss bikey bikes..

Ma fav.

I jz dun und why they want bike so much. Somemore in such place lk India.
Well, they think it's cool to ride on a bike.
I think get a car better.
but...........

I CAN'T DRIVE FOR NUTS LA. xD

Trust in the Lord ur God.

2007-11-18T12:40:00.000-08:00

How great is our God
Sing with me how great is our God.=>

"Everything happens according to the will of God. Have full faith in this.Then every place, every moment, every event of your life begins to feel like heaven and you are convinced that what is happenning is meant for you." I believe that everything happens for a reason.

I've learned that..
1. you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
2. no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.
3. it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
4. it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.
5. you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
6. it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
7. you can keep going long after you can't.
8.we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
9. either you control your attitude or it controls you.
10. sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, butthat doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
10. that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.
11. no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
12. our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
13. even when you think you have no more to give, when a friendcries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
14. the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.
15. along the way that sometimes it's our pain that makes things possible.
16. it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.
~Quote from anonymous

" Be a person with great smile; be happy and merry all the while.When things go wrong, don't go blueJust smile and say I will get through"

Thank you God. For comforting me, taking away my pain..and once again draw me closer to u eventho i've been straying away fr u..
See how Great is our God.